I realized something when I read your thread because your attitude and feelings for you children are so different from my ex-husbands. My ex-husband refused blood to save our 15 year old son in 2001 and he died. An auto accident on the way home from the KH presented the life & death race. He rejected our youngest son and in turn when he tried to make nice with him a year ago, my son told him never to call him again. My ex denied he ever mistreated any of us and he especially never neglected my son or his brothers. My son only laughed at him and told him he is disowned piece of sh-- and never wanted anything more to do with him. My ex does talk to our oldest son but he more or less connected better with his dad than our youngest son ever was.
My ex-husband must have never really loved our sons I guess, I don't understand it. I left the witnesses after Dak died and divorced my children's Dad because of his proud sacrifice of our son on the alter of Jehovah. He literally bragged at the KH about how he refused blood for Dak knowing he would die. They were possessions I guess, and he just never felt anything like you did for your kids. I remember one time he proudly told the boys if you leave Jehovah your mother and I will shun you. I immediately told the boys I would never shun them because they are my heart. My ex later told me how important it was for us to stand together to scare the boys into obedience to Jehovah. I remember asking him where is god's love in any of this? It obviously wasn't in the JW's.
Your children are so fortunate to have you, to know you love them more than than your own life and that you would never allow anything to stand in the way of saving them. Thank you for sharing that, I realize now that sometimes parents sometimes just don't really love their kids and that is sad.
