They really hate it if you say you are happier now than you ever were in da troof.
Your experience is what Transactional Analysis calls a "rubberband" - it illustrates how we respond at times as if we were catapulted back to a painful childhood scene. Imagine a giagantic rubberband stretching back through time. It hooks onto some feature of the present that reminds us of earlier pain, and twang! off we go into the past. Most people have no clear memory of the childhood scene, thus we don't recognize the point of resemblance.
(I would say a witless upbringing has a disproportionate amount of unresolved pain and denial issues)
Because Mother and Father are such important figures in our early life, they are often found at the end of a rubberband. So are our siblings and other parent-figures like grandparents, aunts or uncles. Whenever we are part of a group of people, we are likely to cast each of the group in the role of a parent or sibling. Talking to anyone with whom we relate significantly, we identify them some of the time with figures from the past. We do so without conscious awareness.
Rubberbands do not always stretch back to people. We can hook back to sounds, smells, particular surroundings or anything else that reminds us of painful childhood situations. By disconnecting the rubberbands, we can tackle here and now situations with all the grown up resources at our command.
TRY THIS
Think of a recent situation in which you were under stress and which ended upleasantly or unsuccessfully for you. In particular think what bad feeling you experienced during that situation. You need not actually experience that feeling again while you do the exercise.
Now recall a situation in the last year which turned out badly for you in a similar way, and in which you felt the same bad feeling.
Go back about five years and recall a similar situation where you had that same feeling.
Now bring back the memory of a scene with the same unpleasant feeling from your teenage years.
Recall a scene with a similar bad feeling from your childhood. How old were you?
Think back to even earlier scenes where you felt the same bad feelings. What age were you? Who is there? What is happening?
The aim of this exercise is to find the far end of the rubberband. What was the similarity between the recent experience and your childhood experience? Once you are aware of what past experience and beliefs you are replaying you can begin disconnecting from the rubberband.
Use your adult awareness to remind yourself that people in the here and now are in fact quite different from what they were in the past and have no power over you. If you find yourself experiencing that same bad feeling be aware that the current situation will not end the way those past scenes did.
In some families, if you are having too much fun you are labeled lazy or sinful. If you are supposed to be a solemn little grown up, you may believe that if you feel too good, something bad will happen. To ward off evil you feel bad about yourself, instead of letting the other person handle their own baggage.
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