It Took You All 09/02/05 Brenda L. Cloutier This is for all the friends I’ve loved Some still there but most I’ve lost Our paths crossed and we walked for a while Until apart we grow each down a different aisle We played we smiled we laughed we cried We grieved together when one died I wish you all could know How much each means to me Every lesson learned Every passing fantasy It took you all for me to become The only friend I could be This is to my parent’s dear Raised me in love, not in fear My lessons learned your thoughts provoked To one-day stand, be on my own The intangibles were taught I used them daily, wasted not I wish you all could know How much you mean to me Every lesson learned Every reality It took you both for me to become The only daughter I could be This is to all the my lovers past Each one in succession my last My heart was broken bent and bruised Too many times bitterly used One flame burns brighter than the rest I love you so, enduring time’s tests I wish you all could know How much each means to me Every lesson learned Every passing grasp It took you all for me to become The only lover I could be This is to all who have gone before I thank you now and ever more For all who’ve taught me, fought me, freed me And those of you who still greet me You’ve shown me the way when life changed How to walk on; pass through the flame I wish you all could know How much each means to me Every lesson learned Every passing dream It took you all for me to become The only person I could be
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It Took You All - Thank you.
by BrendaCloutier init took you all09/02/05brenda l. cloutier this is for all the friends ive lovedsome still there but most ive lostour paths crossed and we walked for a whileuntil apart we grow each down a different aislewe played we smiled we laughed we criedwe grieved together when one died i wish you all could know how much each means to meevery lesson learned every passing fantasyit took you all for me to becomethe only friend i could be this is to my parents dearraised me in love, not in fearmy lessons learned your thoughts provokedto one-day stand, be on my own the intangibles were taughti used them daily, wasted not i wish you all could know how much you mean to meevery lesson learned every realityit took you both for me to becomethe only daughter i could be this is to all the my lovers pasteach one in succession my lastmy heart was broken bent and bruisedtoo many times bitterly usedone flame burns brighter than the resti love you so, enduring times tests i wish you all could know how much each means to meevery lesson learned every passing graspit took you all for me to becomethe only lover i could be this is to all who have gone beforei thank you now and ever morefor all whove taught me, fought me, freed meand those of you who still greet meyouve shown me the way when life changedhow to walk on; pass through the flame i wish you all could know how much each means to meevery lesson learned every passing dreamit took you all for me to becomethe only person i could be
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All of the Lost Loves
by Sparkplug intoday i was typing out thoughts on a thread and it struck me.
i have not seen my one sister in 20 years.
she has missed out on one of my children completely.
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I have a step-brother (I was adopted, he is their natural child) that has never liked me. Ever! He's 10 years older than me. He got married and moved out at 18 - I was 8.
When I got married and moved out, I invited him and his family, including 3 children over for dinner. I wanted to do my family "thang". He kept backing out of dates until I finally asked: "When can yo come to dinner" and he replied "probably never". Yes, it hurt.
I hadn't seen him in 20 years. Then I saw him at my dads funeral. I walked up to him, and being the same height as him, I looked him straight in the eye and simply said "hello." He looked me up and down, in the eye, and said something like "what? is this some kind of joke? who are you?" (I'm thinking 'ya gotta be kidding - you prick') And I told him, "I'm you little sister." "Oh, hi" and he walked away. Ooooo what a prick.
The rest of my "family" was pleasant if not welcoming and supportive. But I dont' know them. I havent' known them for 30 years, since I left. Ya know what? I no longer care.
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Are we in Christ's 1000 year reign yet?
by undercover insomething that gets lost in the debate over whether the wts ever claimed in print that armageddon would come in 1975 is that they did teach, in print, that 1975 would be the end of 6,000 years of man's existance on earth.. what significance is that?
according to the wts, in print, jesus would start his new 1,000 year reign of peace at the start of the new "millenium".
satan would be abyssed, war will end, the wicked destroyed.. whether the wts said in so many words, "armageddon is coming in 1975" or not, it is strongly associated with the then coming 1,000 year period of peace and rule by jesus.
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All I know is that Armageddon happend in 1975 invisibly just as The Christ's reign over the earth began in 1914 (1878?) invisibly.
If we are in Christ's 1000 year reign, he's a rather shitty ruler.
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POLL: Do You Believe In The Bible or God At All???
by minimus inat this point in your life, do you believe in god or any parts of the bible as being god's word???.
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Ahh Minimus. Great question! Always great questions.
Yes, I believe in a form of "god". But my beliefs are far from any conventional concepts.
I no longer believe in the bible as being anything more than writing of oral traditional history of the Hebrews/Jews (OT) -- or some perverse manipulation of a great man's words for enslavement of the masses (NT)
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Another JW sees the light
by headmath intake that gb.
http://www.freeminds.org/stories/ssalg.htm.
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They don't have to worry about training, Greendawn, their under Jehovah's direction and will be guided on what to do when appropriate. <gag>
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So ashamed this morning........
by Frannie Banannie ini was at the grocery store, wheeling a cart about 1/4 full.
the desire to have some cigarettes was so overwhelming that i avoided my family members with me at the store, grabbed two packs of my favorite brand of cigarettes and hid them under the growing pile of items in my cart.. it was about that time that i woke up.
and very briefly, until i came to my senses, i felt that it was no use to even try if i was going to be so weak as to sabotage my own efforts to be strong..
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Oh Grace! You are so dang funny. Tom Jones eh? Not a bad looking welshman. I agree with Butters - you need a trip to Vegas!
Frannie. Hon. Absolutely normal on the sneeking a smoke dream. I have them occasionally with alcohol.
In AA it is suggested that the dream plays out our urge and desire for the "forbidden fruit" that we have stuffed in our consciousness. It serves as a blatant reminder that one is only so far away from relapse at any given moment. I've become grateful for these dreams because they remind me why I no longer drink.
Ya done good, Frannie! (((((((( giant hugs ))))))))))
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See Ya Next Year!
by HadEnuf in(emotional music swelling in background) good-by hostas, roses, coneflowers and daisies.
farewell astilbe, vinca, hops, black-eyed susans.
adieu to sweet potato vines, ferns, day lilies and cat mint.
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But it's too early for winter! Noooooooooooooo!!!!!!
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Encouragement for Codeblue
by bebu inhey everyone,.
codeblue is needing some major cheering up.
she's been hit very hard by some very difficult news recently, and i know it's been very hard for her these days.
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Lost a Good Friend Today
by Seeker4 inthe former owner of the newspaper i work for died today of cancer.
he was a tall, handsome man just past 50, with a great smile and sense of humor.
he hired me to work here four years ago, and we had a great time together.
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(((( Seeker )))) I'm sorry for the loss of your friend, and his promising retirement cut short. I'm glad he's now out of pain.
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Physical Torturist
by BrendaCloutier inmy nickname for my physical therapist.. after 10 years plus of gimping around due to fibromyalgia, i've pretty much ruined my posture and gate, causing its own set of pain and mobility problems.
in the last two years i've relied on a cane off and on.. so i'm going to pt to get everything back to working properly.
it "should" help reduce secondary pain.
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My nickname for my physical therapist.
After 10 years plus of gimping around due to FibroMyalgia, I've pretty much ruined my posture and gate, causing its own set of pain and mobility problems. In the last two years I've relied on a cane off and on.
So I'm going to PT to get everything back to working properly. It "should" help reduce secondary pain. I'm already beginning to see and feel a difference in my posture and walking. Reduced pain and more limber.
It's just that I'm IN PAIN for 2 days after an appointment. And all the appointment consists of is making sure I'm maintaining propert posture and pelvic tilt <no smart assed comments here, please> while executing the stretches and exercises.
At least I'm beginning to see benefits... grr.