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  My plan--fully revealed

  by Junction-Guy in

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  i think most of you already know what i have been planning.

  i have mentioned it somewhat already.

  i have sent bits of pieces of my story to several christian ministries, and they want to know more.

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  junctions-wife

  It is not that I am on work vacation here. I am still working. I am a cashier for Wal-Mart and I am very happy there. I left Burger King several years ago when my mother was sick. Since then I have worked. Before I left TN I was working two jobs. What I was trying to get at When I was talking about that is I didn't get decorate my own home. I never made time for us or did I make time for me. And I know decorating a house is petty. And yes we have always had seperate bank accounts but bills were paid first. And we did take alot of good vacatons but that was when I was making good money. And I was getting paid for my vacations. And I know everyone has problems.

  good night all

  amanda
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  My plan--fully revealed

  by Junction-Guy in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i think most of you already know what i have been planning.

  i have mentioned it somewhat already.

  i have sent bits of pieces of my story to several christian ministries, and they want to know more.

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  junctions-wife

  Thank-you Bernadette, She actually fell and broke her hip back in August. When my mom and me came out to visit then we decided it was time for us to come home. I love my grandmother dearly, And I have learned alot from her, like knitting crocheting and baking. She is the only Grandparent I have left other than step-grandparents. But she lives in 5 bedroom house all alone and when she fell it took three hours to get the phone to call 911. Since then we have brought in medic alert system while we are away at work. There is not many days she is alone now.

  It is not that my life is tough right now, I just don't know what I want. I have had to depend on Dave for so much in the past, And he would always that I couldn't do something without him. I am a stubborn, hardheaded woman who thinks she can do it all. And maybe Dave is right but I am not ready to give up yet. My bills are still getting paid on my own for right now. And I have some extra money left over.

  Amanda
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  My plan--fully revealed

  by Junction-Guy in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i think most of you already know what i have been planning.

  i have mentioned it somewhat already.

  i have sent bits of pieces of my story to several christian ministries, and they want to know more.

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  junctions-wife

  My time in Kansas has not really changed anything. I came out here to help take care of my Grandmother. And I am just doing that. I have no life I work, sleep, and eat. No I haven't met anybody while I am out here, just because I don't have time or the energy. I have alot of things taken away from me when I moved out here. My friends is the main part. At least in TN I could go out with Steph or Sarah. And there I was talking to someone.

  And I think you are getting the wrong idea of who I am. Our marriage was not the greatest. We had money problems, there was infidelty on my part, and there was emotional abuse on both parts. There is alot of healing on both parts. And I will leave this for now

  Amanda
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  Who on the forum would you like to meet face to face?

  by avidbiblereader in

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  if you had your chance who would you want to meet face to face, talk to them, spend some time picking their brain, have a dinner with, get to know better?.

  i have many but want to hold off for now!!!.

  abr.

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  junctions-wife

  Since I have met a few either in Dallas or WNFJ conference. And have pictures of Honesty and Dave picketing the local KH. I would have to say everyone else. It would my pleasure to met you too DJK. You would find out that I am just a normal girl trying find her way just like everyone else. Maybe with a little bit more attitiude. Just remember I am the shy one in the corner watching everyone else.

  Amanda
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  My plan--fully revealed

  by Junction-Guy in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i think most of you already know what i have been planning.

  i have mentioned it somewhat already.

  i have sent bits of pieces of my story to several christian ministries, and they want to know more.

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  junctions-wife

  Q bert you bring up a very good question and I will give you my answer. The last two years of our marriage I felt like we were roommates not husband and wife. Yes we went on vacation together and slept in the same bed for the most part. There never was any abuse on either side maybe some disagreements but never any abuse. It wasn't until Dave starting taking seperate vacations from me did I feel less than a wife.

  So, yes there is still love, friendship, and happiness. But I knowin my heart that this was the best thing to do for the time being. If something comes out of this, then so be it.

  I would more than likely feel like a guest in my own home. But I always did feel that way anyway. I can honestly say this I wasn't your typical wife. I was working 70-80 hours a week when I worked for Burger King, So Dave decorated the apartment. It had to be his showplace. I was just there to cook when we didn't go out to eat. But I will leave this for tonight.

  Amanda
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  My plan--fully revealed

  by Junction-Guy in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i think most of you already know what i have been planning.

  i have mentioned it somewhat already.

  i have sent bits of pieces of my story to several christian ministries, and they want to know more.

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  junctions-wife

  I know. I may not stay here in Kansas though. I like it here and this is where my family is, But I have always been a loner. I may move back to TN on my own. I have never really been on my own. When we got married I was 18 and still living with parents, and now that I 31 I am living with parents and my grandmother. well gotta go and get ready for work. Thanks for the offer.
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  My real childhood experience

  by Junction-Guy in

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  follks im gonna have to post this in increments as my webtv is acting up, i had a big post already started and then it went haywire.

  should i blame it on the demons?

  trying to shut me up?

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  junctions-wife

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  My plan--fully revealed

  by Junction-Guy in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i think most of you already know what i have been planning.

  i have mentioned it somewhat already.

  i have sent bits of pieces of my story to several christian ministries, and they want to know more.

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  junctions-wife

  Yes we have lots of challenges in line for us. I won't be on long today since I have to go to work. I hate that four letter word "work". The most important thing is for you to heal and deal with you. Who knows after this is all said and done we may understand why we split. And you may find out that I really wasn't the one for you. We may never know. I am going to try come back to TN for a week once my vacation time allows it. That is if I can afford it. I'll have to fly and stay at a hotel. So I really don't know.

  talk later

  Amanda
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  My plan--fully revealed

  by Junction-Guy in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i think most of you already know what i have been planning.

  i have mentioned it somewhat already.

  i have sent bits of pieces of my story to several christian ministries, and they want to know more.

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  junctions-wife

  bttt
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  My plan--fully revealed

  by Junction-Guy in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i think most of you already know what i have been planning.

  i have mentioned it somewhat already.

  i have sent bits of pieces of my story to several christian ministries, and they want to know more.

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  junctions-wife

  It would be a long time coming before Dave and I fully get back in the swing of things if ever. You see yes, we are still married and yes there is still a strong bond between us, and love there. But it is a different kind of love for me now. I have not really moved on. Because I wasn't raise that way. But in the past I have. And Dave still has to come to terms with that. He may have forgotten but he has never forgiven. So yes I made mistakes huge ones. I turned to someone else when I felt that I wasn't loved or needed. I honestly think it was harder for me to deal with all the deamons going on in his head that it was to deal with life. I no longer was his obession or passion. And I was miserable. Dave is a great guy who deserves happiness and love. I think when he came looking for me he didn't know what he was getting. I wasn't sweet and inocent by no means. But I wasn't the school tramp either. But I could recall not fitting in at school or anywhere. I still don't fit in. And I am okay with that. Life goes on. And right now Dave has to heal from the hurt from his dad, stepmom, stepdad, mom, grandpa, and his JW family. His non-JW family in KY are the best. They are what family should be. Supportive and caring. Kinda like my family.

  But I will sign off now. As this unfolds a little more I will share my side of the story and maybe a little more about my background.

  Amanda