I noticed something strange and exhilarating the other day and it was so unusual that I had to share it with my wife. I was at work and I realised that my interest and ability to retain information in several areas has vastly increased over the last few months. In short its as though I now have additional mental capacity since I'm not passing information via the 'wwJd' and the 'can I do this as a Mormon' filter set.
Had another experience as well which showed another dimension to this mental change. In my hotel room I inadvertantly hit the disabled alarm button (I'm not disabled but apparently I was assigned a room with those facilities.) Almost immediately someone ran to my door and knocked to check if I was ok and I, in a daze stumbled to the door in my underwear and nothing else. The female staff member looked embarrassed and asked if she could reset it and without thinking I flung the door open and let her in. She scuttled in and out in a couple of seconds and I managed to mumble that she isn't paid enough to have to put up with my nekkid belly and that I was sorry. What was amazing to me was that old me would have
- - not let her in as a female alone with me ( just in case jigginess happened ;) )
- - been mortified to be caught in my underwear (not just due to its magical nature but just the general act of getting caught undressed) and would have insisted she waited till I dressed and then I would have spent the rest of the day blushing at the situation.
Just a small situation which shows how thoroughly mentally retarded I allowed religion to make me. I do still get angry that I did not have the personal courage to admit I was wrong sooner. Religion makes it so socially and personally hard to admit things to yourself since once youve singed up to one crazy thing you you've lost any personal integrity that would stop you believing the next thing. Talking animals should have been enough.