(((((Tal))))) I hope all is okay? Please take care. We'll miss you. You can always email me at [email protected] too.
Love ya,
Andi
i will soon have to be offline.
to those of you that knew of this, my friends, i'll talk atcha on email.
anyone who would like to keep in touch, my email is buggurlatgmaildotcom.. .
(((((Tal))))) I hope all is okay? Please take care. We'll miss you. You can always email me at [email protected] too.
Love ya,
Andi
i actually have several reasons why i don't resent my witness upbringing, but it sure came in handy today.. last year i posted about helping 50 kids run in the seattle kids marathon at my daughter's school.
the event was a blast and while it was a ton of work, seeing the joy on the kids' faces when they crossed the finish line made it all worth it.. this morning i spoke to the entire student body at my daughter's school at their monthly spirit assembly.
if i hadn't been raised a witness, giving talks from the time i was five, i never would have attempted such a thing.
Way to go Rachel! I wouldn't wish being a JW on anyone either, but like you, I see many positives in that twisted upbringing called Andi's childhood. I was a publisher by the age of 8 and very good at it. Naturally outgoing, field service was fun for me. Joining the TMS at 10 was also fun. I enjoyed public speaking and like my father, I was good at it. It's proved to be very useful in my adult life/career. I can talk to almost anyone in any setting and not be uncomfortable. I think one day I will attempt to teach my children those same skills at an early age. Public speaking is such an amazing negotiating skill in the work force nowadays. At a wedding, I actually saw a maid of honor stand up in front of the wedding guests, freeze, give her written speech (for the toast) to the next bridesmaid and run to the bathroom to throw up. Poor girl.
so, my life as a jw has been cast, before i can speak or understand even one word.
my folks relegated their parental authority to the wts (they told me that, explicitly), and were just tickled pink to see me grow up in accordance with the expectations that they themselves had adopted: the end is near, there is no need to worry about anything in the future, but just to devote my life to the "cause of the truth.".
but this is where the cognitive dissonance comes into play.
I started giving talks in the TM school when I was 6. I got my own publisher's record card when I was 8. I was laying on the floor of the living room, reading a 1950s bound volume, while Mom was ironing some clothes. I burst out and said: "Mom, I want to go to Bethel!" She said: "Craig, that would be great; I'm proud of you."And so it began: from that point on, everything I did, and every decision I made, was for that one and single purpose--to get to Bethel.
Isn't it amazing what a child will do for their parents' approval. I didn't want to get baptized, but I knew it would thrill my parents, so I answered everything exactly right. I wasn't necessarily the perfect little JW girl, but when I did the "good" things it was mostly for my parents approval. Looking back, I can't help but wonder, if I understood the concept of doing something "good" because it was Good and Right.
i reply, "well if that were true, then why do you have to run down all the other christians?".
jw response: "nobody is attacking them personally.
it is the teachings.
"We aren't prideful, we are just giving credit to God's organization"
Why not, "Why are you giving credit to a bunch of people. Aren't you supposed to give Glory to Jehovah?" See...with their warped way of thinking, they cannot distinguish one from the other.
please do not read if you get overly upset by animal cruelty .
in the indian ocean, they are using live dogs and cats to throw in as bait for sharks.
rspca petition.
OMG if this is true, it is horrifying. Bastards.
I signed off.
i am definitely a generalist, i have a bit of interest in 1000 things.
this is one of the reasons i have always been so unhappy, because i have attempted to force myself to be a specialist.
it just doesn't work.
I am a feeler generalist I think. I'm very emotional and have a tendency to "over" sympathize with people to the point of my detriment. (I see and feel their emotions and burdens as if they're mine.) I have always been very intuitive and sensitive for as long as I can remember. I've always considered it a burden and tried to change myself, but lately trying to look at it as a gift and just accept it. I'm pretty generalist myself, but always thought it was my ADD and my inability to focus. LOL!
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just adopted today from the animal shelter, our new daughter molly, at age 8 weeks, and her already loving brother jake her doggy mentor.. isn't she just the cutest thing ever???!!!.
sherry
Oh Sherry! What a doll she is! And Molly - cute name. Molly and Jake. Sounds like they should have their own sitcom.
I tried a clock for a puppy we had once...............didn't work. Sleeping with the kids worked though. He was lonely for a warm body. He would sleep on the bed with one boy or the other.
I never thought about that before Marilyn. Puppies are used to sleeping one on top of the other in a litter. I imagine she might just be lonely. I tried the clock thing too, but it didn't work. I did try another thing though and it worked pretty well. Get an old worn sweatshirt or undershirt (something you've worn and not washed) and put it in her kennel. It will have your scent on it and will make her feel comfy. I did this for my SPCA doggy when I first got him and it really calmed him down.
i have a jw friend i grew up with who recently got married.
although, he and i were very close, when i left the "truth" we stopped talking and seeing each other due to the obvious.
on top of it all, he moved to jersey so it was even harder to see him.
people always seek a reason when there is none, its just a physical occurrence that occurred.
This is true. I don't always think there is someone or something to blame in these type of situations. Betty, I'm so sorry to hear this. I'm glad he still has his family and friends to help him heal. She was so young! jgnat, what a sad story!
i been drinking alot of coffee these days.
i start off my day with four shots of espresso, than a few hours later i'll make a pitcher of frozen latte's and i usually will burn thru a pot if im out working on the ocean.
i even got to the point where i grind all my coffee myself...
I LOVE coffee! But since I started taking ADD meds, I've had to cut down. I allow myself once cup a day before noon and only decaf anytime after that. Otherwise I AM bouncing off the walls! I'm not a big Starbucks fan (their beans always taste burned to me), but I LOVE CC's and Community with Chicory. Rich and robust without tasting burned.
in my totally overwhelming 53 years of human existence, i've finally learned that "it isn't what you think you know; it's what you've been through" that matters to most other people.
so, as an unwilling, though also willing, participant in that cycle of life and death, belief and unbelief, i will offer more to you more than i've ever said to any group of folks than i've ever known.
that's jwd .
BG I was thinking of the same thing... if the 52 next installments are weekly a 54th will be needed
LOL!
LOL @ Andi!Craig, does this mean there are 52 more installments to this story?Spoken like someone who's talked to Craig! I think I'm on installment......ummm 40ish? But I'm enjoying every minute of it!
Katie, I have to tell you the day I spoke with you and Craig, I remember it very clearly. Strange. I was on my patio with a glass of iced tea, watching a couple people in our apartment complex play tennis right below me. They were rather intense and NOT playing for fun, because they kept glaring at me as I guffawed listening to your entertaining husband. Mozz being a serious tennis player himself, made me come inside to hee-haw. Said it was rude or something. LOL!