Posts by Crumpet

it is as if they lay claim to a theory that all male agendas form as thoughts which mainly travel down the cerabal cortex and out through the zipper before coming to life in the real world.. but how do men think women think?.

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Crumpet

I have often heard women speak about men who think with their meat and two veg!

I don't think men have the monopoly on this. I think that women generally are becoming far more the aggressors sexually - I wonder if its evolutionary change!

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My story: "Pop!" goes the Little Circuit Breaker

by TJ - iAmCleared2Land in

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i guess it's about time i write my story.

i've put this off for a long time... primarily becuase, while i thought my story was bad, i've read so many worse and heart-rending stories here.

i think, though, there is some therapeutic value in 'letting it all out' with others who know what 'it' was like.

Crumpet

Well put Tij. I like how you reversed the assembely example - I expect the psychology of it went over their heads though.

Something else that can happen with this prolonged isolation from other people as punishment is as an ex of mine described it - you make a virtue of necessity. In other words instead of fighting the punishment or wanting differently you embrace it as if you chose it for yourself and it becomes your life pattern. I now spend weeks and weeks without leaving my apartment or speaking to another human being except for by email. Its what I am used to. I'm afraid its probably irresversible. When I do come out and spend time with people periodically (like when I come to America) there are moments where I do just want to run away and be by myself which I have to really fight, because there is no rationale for it and I genuinely love being with you guys. I'm just programmed that way now.

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My story: "Pop!" goes the Little Circuit Breaker

by TJ - iAmCleared2Land in

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i guess it's about time i write my story.

i've put this off for a long time... primarily becuase, while i thought my story was bad, i've read so many worse and heart-rending stories here.

i think, though, there is some therapeutic value in 'letting it all out' with others who know what 'it' was like.

Crumpet

WTF - they claim to be annointed now!!! That makes me want to puke up side their heads. What kind of relationship do you have with them now?

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My story: "Pop!" goes the Little Circuit Breaker

by TJ - iAmCleared2Land in

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i guess it's about time i write my story.

i've put this off for a long time... primarily becuase, while i thought my story was bad, i've read so many worse and heart-rending stories here.

i think, though, there is some therapeutic value in 'letting it all out' with others who know what 'it' was like.

Crumpet

I've just read part 1 and there are so many instances in the detail I can relate to:

Dad used to tell me that he and Mom were special pioneers in Kansas before they got pregnant with me—that he had plans to be a circuit overseer and I ruined that for him. He actually called me, repeatedly, his "little circuit breaker." He was serving as a ministerial servant while we were babies.

I am the eldest like you TJ and my parents were married less than a year when they went to Spain in the 70's to serve where the need was great and slightly exciting since Franco was still dictator and arresting witnesses for meeting together. I was their mistake, but they certainly made me feel like it was my fault for coming along in that first year.

And the bed wetting I can relate to as well - I also used to have such violent dreams (demon and Armageddon related) that I would fall out of bed and hurt myself against furniture from when I was 4 or 5 and I'd get punished for that too.

I guess the brightside is that despite our problems maybe the whole process of not being allowed to be children enables us to be a bit more empathetic and maybe more human, for our parents lack of it.

You wrote it really really well and its extremely engaging - I'm really glad you did my friend. (Off to read part 2!)

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Death is a Terrible thing...

by KW13 in

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has it sunk in for you people that your going to die yet?

i'm still avoiding the thought but it lurks in the back of my mind, i'm aware someday i've got to address it - like many here i didnt expect to live this far in this system, so i haven't any plan for life as of yet.. death frightens me.

i cannot sometimes watch a film with death of a character in a tragic way - there one moment with family/friends and a life and then not...i read the story about challenger the rocket that exploded and how the crew onboard that shuttle may well of been aware they were going to die.

Crumpet

Crumpet, I know what you mean.

Lonleysheep - I just want to hug you so hard for that. I do hope that I get to give you that for real before we leap to our deaths. (I'll be back your side of the pond in 3 months!)

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Beauty out of Neglect (Pictures)

by Bumble Bee in

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on my travels this morning, i drove past an abandonded farm.

i've driven past here before, and stop there every may/june and pick the sweetest smelling lilacs.

something compelled me today to turn around and go back and do some exploring and take pictures.

Crumpet

Absolutely stunning Bumble Bee. I'm so glad you worded the thread the way you did - that particular composition of words drew my eye and such rewards I would have missed without them.

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Death is a Terrible thing...

by KW13 in

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has it sunk in for you people that your going to die yet?

i'm still avoiding the thought but it lurks in the back of my mind, i'm aware someday i've got to address it - like many here i didnt expect to live this far in this system, so i haven't any plan for life as of yet.. death frightens me.

i cannot sometimes watch a film with death of a character in a tragic way - there one moment with family/friends and a life and then not...i read the story about challenger the rocket that exploded and how the crew onboard that shuttle may well of been aware they were going to die.

Crumpet

((((Karl))))

Last night I was listening to late night radio and heard a song which said exactly what I feel: You can't live until you are ready to die.

I'm not deliberately fatalistic or wanting to die but flying back from America when we hit really bad turbulence for an hour I really enjoyed it. I knew if the plane started freefall I'd still be smiling.

I'm ready. Not in a hurry, but I'm totally okay with it. I wouldnt have been a few years ago because I wasnt at peace, but in so many ways I am at peace now.

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Having a bit of difficulty here...

by wanderlustguy in

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i haven't posted much in a while because i've been in deep thought about some recent events and trying to sort them all out.

i think you guys all know me well enough to know if i'm just freakin nuts or not...so assuming you all think i am sane...does this sound crazy to anyone else?.

when i got here, people kept telling me that if you come here, walk here, and are supposed to be living here, you will do so within a month of touching the ground.

Crumpet

I think I can see where you are coming from and why. I've been having similar sorts of experiences all year. Its been strange but good. I just make sure that I dont take anything for granted and that I give back as much as I am given, if not more. That's why I couldnt walk past the guy outside the bar and other things.

Others would definitely make the connection between the things provided when we need them most and God or some higher power. But if I look back I have always received just what I needed when I needed it ever since I stopped trying to label it all. Accept, be thankful, put back in whatever you can whenever you can and... sometimes when you can't.

Hugs x