Flower,
I think going to a professional is a great idea. But also try to remember that just because the WTBTS let you down that you don't have to give up on God. Perhaps you can find a tradtional church that believes in the mercy of God and the true meaning of Christ sacrafice for mankind. Get a copy of a non-NWT bible, maybe a Living Bible, and read the book of Galatians. Don't just read a few verses, read the entire book. Learn that the Good News is really all about relying on Jesus to help us and to live our lives for Him.
The Good News is that Jesus does not expect us to conform to any certain strict laws, just let His Holy Spirit guide you.
It is scary to me how many people let the WTBTS keep them from having a relationship with God. You still must have faith, but your faith needs to be in Jesus and God not a society.
As I said before, getting professional help is great. I'm not trying to discouage you from this.
Just remember, its really pretty simple, Jesus Loves You!