today: (aloud rumbling nose) .
me: oh my god...is it armageddon(heat beats starts to sweat).
me: oh it's just a plane...phew.
also i would also like to add
Is it right for me to try and influence my mum away from it...since she hasn't gone for a month...she's dead negative about it and i've read her jerimiah 14:14, and i think i've done it...i think it worked!!! somehow it conflicts with her believes! i like to thank my mate who gave me that, seems to do the trick. If she stops, then it'll be over!!! that is all...i feel alot better now!!!
goodbye
after leaving a controlling sect, it?s normal to want to live ?freedom?.
what did you do to show that you were no longer under the influence of the watchtower?
did you grow a beard, start having sex with whoever, start drinking, start gambling?
leeds festival 2003 rock festival, I went to Download 2004 festival, the best Metal/rock music festival, i've join the rock music society, then of course i'm a goth. fave bands, slipknot, deftones, funeral for a friend, the killers, system of a down, the distillers...learning to play a guitar...i'm in a rock band...i love to drink...went drunkard ice-skating with my mates last night...tried weed, ciggies(i want to give that up though), lots of sex...swearing, even though i did anyway, and i've now got my ears peirced 8 times and i'm planning to get my belly button done
just bear in mind i didn't do this in one week...
today: (aloud rumbling nose) .
me: oh my god...is it armageddon(heat beats starts to sweat).
me: oh it's just a plane...phew.
Today: (Aloud rumbling nose)
ME: oh my god...is it armageddon(heat beats starts to sweat)
ME: oh it's just a plane...phew
I snuggle up to my boyfriend who is a aethiest
Hi i'm new...i dunno if i'm free or not...at the back of my mind i can't help thinking "are they are telling the truth..."there's so much things i need to stop doing...i suppose cos my mum is still a witness if feel protective...!!! But unlike some Jehovahs witness my mum is cool...she didn't go crazy when i said i've got a new boyfriend and i might be pregnant...she was surprisingly supportive...i'm not pregnant by the way.
Also writing out christmas cards to my friends and buying presents still seems so un-natural and for some reason costly...man xmas is just commercial...oh well in least i will get some gifts this year. and however hard i want to be free it's like
Mate 1: hey so yer not a jehovahs witness anymore
Me: I never was(but when yer mum is, you might as well be)
Mate 2: why???
Me: Just don't want to be one
Mate 1: So can you celebrate xmas and birthdays and stuff
Me: yes
Mate 1: Can you have sex before marriage now?
Me: Yeah and i enjoyed it very much
Mate 2: Wow
this is not the sort of freedom i want...if you know what i mean...in least now i'm away from uni. no-one knows about my past
i was never baptized...just a associate...i stopped going when i was 16 because i told my mum i didn't like field service and it's freezing cold(that was the main reasons of leaving i know it's lame)
Mum: well i don't really like it either...but you have to stay strong
plus i wanted to watch eastenders(hate that show now, it's so boring)
I'm 20 now and i'm happy with able to do things i want but i still feel guilty sometimes, i'm shocked how much they have influenced me and i'm just worried if they are right all along...i don't want to read any against jehovahs witnesses books (which i saw advertized) and i don't want to join another religious group...i just want to forget.
hopefully i wont have to stay on this site for long, hopefully JW will be a distant "graceful" memory.
do you ever feel like this???
i didn't know there was a website for this...my mate who used to be one told me
