Thanks everyone for your comments. SK and Imbue, I have come a long way, and I am definately ready to live in freedom ... I am just not sure that I am ready for the inevitable loss of my family.
Prisca, I think the worst that could happen is that I wouldn't be allowed to meet my sister's brand new baby girl. Being cut off from my nieces and nephews would be awful.
Amarie and Joy, Thank you so much for your unconditional support.
Outnfree, I believe that finding the courage to speak out will in the long run contribute more to my peace of mind. I know that I am strong and capable .... I just hate that doing the right thing comes at such a high price.
BobsGirl
"May the work of your hands be a sign of gratitude and reverence to the human condition." - Mahatma Gandhi