Posts by BobsGirl

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Are you afraid?

by YoYoMama in

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are you afraid of death?

When I was an active member of the Borg ... I was terrified of death. I never felt quite "enough" to make the "book of life" cut, so I was sure that death would be an endless chasm of nothingness just waiting to suck me in.

When I left the Borg and began spreading my fledgling wings.. I began to believe that I was "enough" just as I am. The fear left and freedom ensued....

And then I did the worst possible thing any person free from fear could ever do if they want remain at peace...

I fell in love. Madly, wildly, quietly, serenely, forever in love. With a blind man. Suddenly I was imagining cars running him down, or something left in the stairs or any one of a million scenarios. I wasn't afraid of losing myself .... but terrified of losing him. Eventually I found some peace with the fact that he is careful, his senses are keen, and he is most probably as safe as or safer than any of us.

Then I had a baby boy ... and Oh my God ..... I am sure you can well imagine. Now my fears of death revolve around the selfish fact that I never want to be without these two "icky boys" who have stolen my heart. I NEVER want to leave them alone.

I am beginning to believe in reincarnation .... maybe not for the belief itself ... but for the comfort.

The one thing I know however, when I do die, I will leave this world knowing that I have experienced the joy of truly loving and I have been well and truly loved in return.

Isn't that what life is all about?!

BobsGirl

"May the work of your hands be a sign of gratitude and reverence to the human condition." - Mahatma Gandhi

43

vegas anyone???

by peaceloveharmony in

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hey, crazy idea from chat.....doesn't a trip to vegas in say january sound great?.

apost-o-fest 2002 vegas style .

so whatcha think?

BobsGirl

I think it would be cool ..... Bobby and I missed our anniversary due to my being sick as a dog ... maybe I could make it up to him in sin city??!!!

BobsGirl

"May the work of your hands be a sign of gratitude and reverence to the human condition." - Mahatma Gandhi

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ANTHEM

by nicolaou in

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shouldn't all of us ex-dubs, lurkers and nominal jw's have an anthem?.

a few suggestions for starters:.

i will survive.

BobsGirl

This is my own personal anthem ... I wrote it about 4 years ago and so far it is coming true ... all except the cabin by a stream part .... Maybe one day ....

If my life were perfect
And I could live my dream
I’d be writing music
In a cabin near a stream
My babies would surround me
Humming my simple tunes
And when the sun fell from the sky
I’d share my moons with you

I’d wake up each morning
In our feather bed
I’d feel your warmth beside me
And hear your steady breath
My heart would know the peace of
A lover and a friend
A though our love would grow and change
It would never ever end

My children would all grow up
Strong and proud and free
They would grow up knowing
The best there was of me
They would have the courage
To make a better choice
And never be afraid to
Always trust that inner voice

When My life is over
And they carry me away
I will leave some wisdom
Behind me from the grave
Its voice will be my music
And the words my children speak
Its message would be one of Love
And the strength we find in peace

BobsGirl

"May the work of your hands be a sign of gratitude and reverence to the human condition." - Mahatma Gandhi

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ANTHEM

by nicolaou in

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friends

shouldn't all of us ex-dubs, lurkers and nominal jw's have an anthem?.

a few suggestions for starters:.

i will survive.

BobsGirl

This is my own personal anthem ... I wrote it about 4 years ago and so far it is coming true ... all except the cabin by a stream part .... Maybe one day ....

BobsGirl

"May the work of your hands be a sign of gratitude and reverence to the human condition." - Mahatma Gandhi

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Why I love Mom

by closer2fine in

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mom and dad were watching tv when mom said, "i'm tired, and it's .

getting late.

i think i'll go to bed.

BobsGirl

When I was about 8 I had a rag doll that I carried with me everywhere. Her name was Becca and she was very nearly loved to death. Her poor neck spewed stuffing from an often-darned rent and her red yarn hair had all but fallen out, but she was my baby. Every night she was by my side, as I would drift off to dream. I remember waking one morning to find her missing. I searched frantically for her only to leave for school in tears. My Becca was gone and somehow I had to find a way to sleep without her. I remember that night, my mother lying next to me and rubbing my hair until the tears had abated and I fell into a miserable slumber. The next day, upon my return from school, I saw a shiny box. It was an empty Pampers box (they were still packaging them in boxes when I was young) and it was wrapped in aluminum foil. It was big and sparkly and my mother said that it was for me! I remember being genuinely surprised to come home to a present. I very gingerly removed the foil, and opened the box to find, not Becca, but her clone. My mother had taken my precious doll and, carefully removing all of her stitching, used her as a pattern to make me a brand new dolly. She looked exactly like Becca, except for one minor difference. This dolly had a big heart embroidered on her chest with the words "I love Tema" inside. This is why I love my Mom. She had six children, NO money, and a heart that somehow knew just how to love us exactly right.

I haven't thought of this for a long time, but it is one of my favorite childhood memories.

Thank you closer for reminding me.

BobsGirl

"May the work of your hands be a sign of gratitude and reverence to the human condition." - Mahatma Gandhi

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NEWS: I am publicly reproved over UN situation.

by badwillie in

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my wife and i met with 3 elders for a "judicial hearing".. our crime: simply put, was talking.

i showed a friend the un website where the wts was listed as an ngo which then led to a 2 hour discussion of various doubts that we both have had.

my wife also showed a friend the un thing but also discussed with her a first hand account of a pedophile cover-up that we knew about in our former congregation.

BobsGirl

Thank you for sharing your story. I would just like to add my voice to those who are offering support now.

Tomorrow evening, I will be sharing the UN information with the members of my family who are still active. I am aprehensive, but I feel as if I must. However it turns out, it is good to know that there are others who understand and are willing to be supportive.

BobsGirl

"May the work of your hands be a sign of gratitude and reverence to the human condition." - Mahatma Gandhi

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Guess What - I am going to come clean!!!!!

by TRUTH in

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to who will listen:.

until yesterday, i did not even know that this discussion group or anything like it existed.

i really did not care.

BobsGirl

Truth,

I feel for you. We have similar stories. I wish you the best and offer you a listening ear if needed. My email is open. Welcome to the board. You will find support here. Not everyone will agree with you, any more than you will agree with them always, But you will find comfort and companionship of sorts. Good Luck!

BobsGirl

"May the work of your hands be a sign of gratitude and reverence to the human condition." - Mahatma Gandhi

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Christmas&Thanksgiving-Are you celebrating?

by Vitameatavegamin in

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hi friends;.

just wondering about this subject of holidays again.

i really miss christmas but don't have enough nerve to celebrate it.

BobsGirl

This will be the first year that I have a tree and I can't wait. I love to cook and love to celibrate, but haven't had the courage to let my home show it until this year. It will be my son's first Christmas. Yippee.

BobsGirl

"May the work of your hands be a sign of gratitude and reverence to the human condition." - Mahatma Gandhi

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Help & What are the blessings in YOUR life?

by Billygoat in

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these thoughts have been triggered by one of esmerelda's posts about the lesson she learned from her daughter.

if you haven't read it, please do.

it is beautifully written!

BobsGirl

Andi,

I am right there with you girl. For the first time in my life I do have a ton to be gratefule for, yet I find myself worrying. My husband works in the Federal Building in downtown Cincinnati and I can't help but feel that he is vulnerable. I have a precious baby boy. I know that I am truly blessed. But I still worry. I still feel a little raw around the edges and sore in the middle. I am glad to read your post and the responses because I know I am not the only one who feels as I do. Maybe that is the greatest comfort we can offer one another. Togetherness.

BobsGirl

"May the work of your hands be a sign of gratitude and reverence to the human condition." - Mahatma Gandhi

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My past weekend

by Leander in

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saturday afternoon i made the decision to step down as a minsterial servant.

i had given it a lot of thought and i came to the conclusion that i would be doing the right thing.

i told my wife about the decision i had planned on making and that basically killed her mood for the rest of the day.

BobsGirl

Thank you for sharing your story. I am going through some similar pressures. I wish you the best.

BobsGirl

"May the work of your hands be a sign of gratitude and reverence to the human condition." - Mahatma Gandhi