always on the fringes because I work full time
Haha, I can relate to THAT one. I betcha they have told you on many occasions to give up your job. Make more effort to serve Jehovah, take the first step and you will see that Jehovah will bless your efforts abundantly. I've heard it all and it used to tick me off quite a bit. Single women have to put food on the table and buy clothes as well, and since most don't have a college education because it is looked down upon within the organization, they have to take jobs that don't pay well, and thus work full time, or even two jobs, in order to make a living.
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