Posts by Miata

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Never Thought About Suicide. Why not?

by Nosferatu in

i was doing some thinking this morning about my mother, when she said she wanted to "work on our bond" over a pizza, and i pretty much didn't bother with the offer.

i was thinking about how i'd confronted her before my boy was born about all the physical abuse which she denied.

i started thinking back to that time in my life, when i would shake uncontrollably thinking about school, let alone actually going to school.

Miata

I too was beat up at school and then at home. But in my case I actually attempted suicide on about 7 different occasions starting at the tender age of 7. Thats right seven. I finally "fixed" myself in my late 20's and it is no longer an option.

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did anyone on here ever have a paedophile in thier congregation?

by looloo in

if so, did it bother you that he had been reprooved and forgiven rather than reported to the police?

Miata

Well....lets see....I feel the same way that "A Mother" feels. My step-father was and is an active member and was molesting his daugher, me and then finally his daughters daughter who was.....18 months old when she was taken from my parents with fissures (tears) around her anus!!!!! My step-father? He married a woman young enough to be his daughter who had a teen-age daughter of her own. Oh yes and then there was my mother's JW best friends who were a couple....A COUPLE OF FREAKS!!! He (the husband and my mother's friend) used to crawl in my bed. He was and is an elder in good standing and moving from cong to cong like child molesters do. (I was about 6 years old) this couple had kids my age. The son was 3 years older than me and daughter was 1 year younger and another son was 6 years younger. The son used to always try to have sex with me, ( I was 10) but eventually settled for sex with his sister who was my best friend!!! (She gave birth to his child at the age of 15) And my best friend always tried to get me to play with her little brother's penis but it never felt right to me. Imagine that!!! But how could you blame those 3 kids? Their parents used to force them to take showers together when they were way too old. Like when my friend was 13, which made her brother 17 years old????? What the hell was wrong with those people? My mother tried to shotgun marry me to the brother at the age of 15 but I ran away and turned my mother and step-father in to the police myself at the age of 15 and proceeded with a court battle from hell. Oh yeah and another thing... 7 of my childhood friends committed suicide!!!!!!!! 7?????? What the hell is wrong with that? Have you EVER heard of that many kids from the same religion killing themselves????? Why cant someone do something about this fucked up religion? Needless to say? I have a real hate-on for JW's and their ignorance and stupidity. PROTECT ALL THE CHILDREN THAT YOU CAN FROM THIS RELIGION. My mother died a devout witness. She used to lay on a cot at the back of the hall. Riddled with cancer throughout her body though she never smoked a cigarette in her life. What a fool she was. And me? Disfellowshipped at the age of 14 for bringing reproach upon the name of Jehovah by reporting to the police. You know? I got reinstated at the age of 20 and reassociated myself with that family and my best friend and during the next 3 years of reinstatement I had childhood memories resurface regarding the sexual deviancy of both of our sets of parents and some of the memories were not forgivable. I then took myself out of the Borg for good and have never looked back. That was over 20 years ago. Even after all of that....I found (quite accidentally) the silent lambs website in 2002 and was so unbelievably shocked that this was going on that I have been a tyrant about this ever since. I figure the shock was because I (like most survivors) blamed myself at first and thought I was the only one with a fucked up family but loe and behold.... The authorities need to STOP THOSE INSANE PEOPLE

Mom, how come you let me cry? I am scared and all alone. That man you married, he told a lie, Is this what you condone?

Mom, you should have helped me.

You should have seen the danger signs.

Mom, this crime just cannot be, Someone needs to pay the price

Mom, damn you, you took his side,

and the elders, they took it too. Mom, I know God will not abide By the horrible things they do.

Mom, you died with a heavy heart,

and he went on to hurt others. Mom, I will heal then I will start, to support my hurting brothers.

Cheri R August 2003

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Time again for........ Congregation roll call

by Jourles in

it's been a while since this topic has been brought up.

use it as a chance to see if there is someone you might know from years past.

1973-1976 --- lakeside, ca??

Miata

Truckee, California 1965-1976

Kings Beach, California 1981-1983

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Silent Lambs Website is down isnt it?

by Miata in

i have been trying to get to the silentlambs website but cannot seem to do it.

does anyone know anything about the site?

can anyone help me?

Miata

Thanks for the answers. I was sorta paniced that it was down. Jeff, this is Cheri Romero. You remember me from silentlambs. I replied to your message that I would love to exchange christmans cards with your wife and you. I have been doing that for over 20 years now so I am an old hand at it. Take care okay?

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Silent Lambs Website is down isnt it?

by Miata in

i have been trying to get to the silentlambs website but cannot seem to do it.

does anyone know anything about the site?

can anyone help me?

Miata

I have been trying to get to the silentlambs website but cannot seem to do it. Does anyone know anything about the site? Can anyone help me?

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My Son is Going Back to Iraq for his Second Tour

by Miata in

and i am so angry about it.

he leaves on the 29th of january and will be gone for 15 months.

i am so scared that if i think about it for too long, i have panic attacks that leave me breathless and immobilize me.

Miata

Ok, enough arguing already. My son is also getting shot at even as we speak and as far as Jynx is concerned, he is one crass, smart ass of a guy. Hopefully that will help him make it back. 120 days is a far cry from the 15 months that my son is doing over there this time.

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My Son is Going Back to Iraq for his Second Tour

by Miata in

and i am so angry about it.

he leaves on the 29th of january and will be gone for 15 months.

i am so scared that if i think about it for too long, i have panic attacks that leave me breathless and immobilize me.

Miata

I mean the tactics they use to suck young people in are very similar to high control groups. I'm sure he, like thousands others, never dreamed they'd be (mis)used in the way they are.

No you are right, he was strong armed recruited the moment he graduated from High school and they promised him all sorts of rewards. But the fact of the matter is that he is a very honorable lad and he will finish this whatever the cost. One of his favorite sayings is "you cannot gain honor by acting dishonorably" and one of the things he did out there was to save an Iraqie woman from being raped by our OWN men. He saved her and then turned the two soldiers over to military police and then was forced to kill her father right in front of her. He will receive a medal for that. Anyway, he is a good man and he will finish this. I am the one bitching. So Jynx and counterpart capone can stfu about him. He doesnt any publicity or anything for his poem, he just wants to get this over with and come home.

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My Son is Going Back to Iraq for his Second Tour

by Miata in

and i am so angry about it.

he leaves on the 29th of january and will be gone for 15 months.

i am so scared that if i think about it for too long, i have panic attacks that leave me breathless and immobilize me.

Miata

Simply put... shut it and instead of whining like a 4 year old, maybe you should support your son... unless he's the one crying... then he's just a little priss.

Okay, Jynx? Is that right? Well I would figure that it is a name well placed. First of all my son is very brave and will do his "duty" no matter what!!! And the difference between him and you? Is that he has very good MANNERS which you do not. Obviously your momma didnt do a very good job teaching that common quality to you did she? So listen little man (cause it would take a very little man to post what you did) go back to your planpen and re-learn your manners okay? Thank you very much.

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My Son is Going Back to Iraq for his Second Tour

by Miata in

and i am so angry about it.

he leaves on the 29th of january and will be gone for 15 months.

i am so scared that if i think about it for too long, i have panic attacks that leave me breathless and immobilize me.

Miata

I dont believe that I was asking a question per se but just venting like the others on this thread have said and I certainly DID NOT want to turn this into a battle. I was just crying out. EXCUSE THE F--K oOUT OF ME!!! Now, since I know how it will be received, I wont bother to post on here anymore. Support is SUPPORT! It is not the insensitive crap that Ive heard from Little Witch and Capone. The truth is that I opposed my son going in the first place but he was 18 and could do what he wanted. Hell, he was still a God-damned virgin for Christ's sake. But I was not asking for your opinions about the war or the military. I was asking for support. Get it? So you dont need to lecture me on the contract okay? Enough said!!
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My Son is Going Back to Iraq for his Second Tour

by Miata in

and i am so angry about it.

he leaves on the 29th of january and will be gone for 15 months.

i am so scared that if i think about it for too long, i have panic attacks that leave me breathless and immobilize me.

Miata

Carry on then, lecture away at Miata ... make sure to cover all the fine points as to why she should suck it up and get over her panic attacks and worry since the Contract signed makes them duty bound. I'm sure you'll win her over to your point of view real soon.

You go Bisous. LOL I definitely have a (no more than a) friend here.