snakeizz,{and everyone for that matter}Isnt it difficult to describe what you went through in just a few paragraphs!!!! Some days the things I think of really startle me.I'm sure you could have written another 20 paragraphs about it.You story really reminded me of my own,thats why I say this.I get so pissed sometimes that i cant even get the words out.I was raised {oops-i mean brainwashed} in the religion as well.I'm 23 now but have struggled with this whole religion thing for about 7 years now.Ive seen my family gone to shambles,some still involved in the madness.Its so hard thinking about how they used me physically,emotionally,and phsycologically.I know it could have been worse,but why did it have to be like that---why couldn't my parents see what they were doing was wrong(not so much thuier belifs,but how they forced thier beliefs on me)I have so much resentment towards them,the organization,some of the local elders.They ruin childrens lives.I have been told by both my parents"well at least you werent molested"-because they had been.What kind of statement is that to make to your kid.I have since cleared up many of these issues with my parents,but I still dont think they'll ever understand what they did to our family.My older sister{25}is stuck in a crappy marriage she was forced into by herself,my parents and the religion-clearly brainwashed.My younger sister(18)from what I hear is very confused and cant bring herself to leave this crap,probly for fear of losing her "friends"...........Again,i tend to rant,sorry about that.........more to come i guess