I wish you luck Yoyo but not with being reinstated. I do read my bible every day, that is one of the main reasons why I left the WT. Try reading the whole bible, not just the assigned chosen few scriptures the WT tells you to read.
What I really wish for you, is that you prepare a letter of disassociation, then when, or if, they reinstate you, give them your letter. Tell them you have found out that they do not represent the true God, then seek that relationship with God that you desire.
Whatever you do, I wish you great happiness.
Borgfree
"Kindness in words creates confidence. Kindness in thinking creates profoundness. Kindness in giving creates love." Lao-tzu