I didn't have much of a trauma experience with it because I "felt" it being wrong when my parents came in. I was around 6 or 7. I went along with it because that's what my parents told me to do. I remember asking ones that would say they felt Jah's spirit. I never did and I couldn't no matter how hard I tried. I stayed in for the longest time because I was afraid of losing my family and friends.
The "trauma" part was when I did lose my family. The thing that helps me is having my kids. I was lucky enough to have not believed for so long that I didn't have too much bitterness or heartaches. I was ready to come out when I had the opportunity.