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  All I really know of so far is the library card, Tabacco stuff.............

  by cindykp in

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  since im still new here, i never saved any info or links.. i could get off my lazy butt and search through this whole site, but that seems like alot of work.

  (and the search thing never works for me.

  know some of you have craploads of links, articles and other things that may help me out.

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  Well, my spacing looks like poop!
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  All I really know of so far is the library card, Tabacco stuff.............

  by cindykp in

  1. jw
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  since im still new here, i never saved any info or links.. i could get off my lazy butt and search through this whole site, but that seems like alot of work.

  (and the search thing never works for me.

  know some of you have craploads of links, articles and other things that may help me out.

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  Since Im still new here, I never saved any info or links.

  I could get off my lazy butt and search through this whole site, but that seems like alot of work. (and the search thing never works for me.) I

  know some of you have craploads of links, articles and other things that may help me out. I talked to my sis in law yesterday, and told her I

  have alot of doubts, and things I dont understand. It would be nice to have a bunch of stuff printed out to show her, as she said we could get

  together and talk about it. But it would have to be possitive proof of things, not just opinions. So if anyone would like to give advice that

  would help I would appreciate it. Not only that, I would like to read it all over for myself.

  Cindy
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  Re: the funeral that I did not want to go to today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  by cindykp in

  1. jw
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  those of you who saw my threads, know that my grandpa was going to die.

  you may also remember the fact

  that he went from the catholic religion to jw"s, may have had this wrong at first, but in 2003. we discussed the fact

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  I will keep posting. I will come on every sunday about 11:45, "cause I wont be hangin around for conversation" , and tell you all about the wonderfull talk, and the Watchtower study! LOL yeah right. just kidding.
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  Hey!

  by purplesofa in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i have had this nickname online for over five years.

  when i signed up at this discussion board i really was looking for fellow jw believers, looking for some new freinds.

  what i found was something so much better.

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  I am on Chapter 4 of the CoC book

  What is the book about. I'm still very new to all this info. And where can I get one.
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  Re: the funeral that I did not want to go to today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  by cindykp in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  those of you who saw my threads, know that my grandpa was going to die.

  you may also remember the fact

  that he went from the catholic religion to jw"s, may have had this wrong at first, but in 2003. we discussed the fact

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  Good morning!

  What I mean is that it just breaks my heart to see that an organization, any organization, would encourage someone to do something they don't want to do or don't feel comfortable doing just to gain the fellowship of their family

  They arent the ones doing this. In their eyes that would be wrong, and they wouldnt reinstate me If they didnt feel I was sincere about coming back. Its me.

  But in the end, i just keep thinking of my son, do i really
  want to raise him with the jw mentality? No, i sure dont.

  My kids have never been raised in the truth, and they are getting older. So they wont go.

  rwagoner, I will still come to the forum! And right back at ya!!

  My only question would be, what happens when your family dissapoints you?

  Well, I guess that can happen to anyone, for any reason. My family is very large. And I do have to say that I have been blessed with the fact it is an extremely loving family. And once again they showed that to me yesterday. Im really not to worried about being dissapointed.

  Besides that, I have been so dissapointed lately, depressed, discusted, you name it. So I cant see it getting any worse. I know that alot of you have had bad experiences in some of your congregations. I have only had two. (my 2 df's) But the people in the congregation I never had problems with. And since I was out for so long, I really dont know them anymore.

  And for those of you who commented about being shunned, it sucks! It hurts! And its just downright ugly!! I wish I could change a few rules there. When people are df'd or fall away, that is when they need encouragement the most. At least at the kingdom hall.

  All I know is that after seeing my whole family yesterday, I just cant imagine living the rest of my life without them. And sadly to say I think there are alot of witnesses that ride the fence for this reason.
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  Re: the funeral that I did not want to go to today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  by cindykp in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  those of you who saw my threads, know that my grandpa was going to die.

  you may also remember the fact

  that he went from the catholic religion to jw"s, may have had this wrong at first, but in 2003. we discussed the fact

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  I have always said I am not an apostate, which is a stupid lable anyway. I love Jehovah. " I'm just not sure" about all the teachings of the wts. I have learned things here, that I would never even think would exist in the org. But right down to the end, I believe faith in god is a good thing. (not saying the jw's are it) It does structure a person. But, there has to be an extent to where that ends, which I have not seen in the org. But the simple fact is, my family is more important to me than any thing else. If this is what it takes, than so be it! My blinders will always be off!!!!!!
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  Re: the funeral that I did not want to go to today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  by cindykp in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  those of you who saw my threads, know that my grandpa was going to die.

  you may also remember the fact

  that he went from the catholic religion to jw"s, may have had this wrong at first, but in 2003. we discussed the fact

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  Here I go! Those of you who saw my threads, know that my grandpa was going to die. You may also remember the fact

  that he went from the catholic religion to JW"S, may have had this wrong at first, but in 2003. We discussed the fact

  that no one would talk to me at the funeral, at least not the witnesses. I had alot of advice, some said not to go, some

  said to go with my head held high! Well the latter was my choice. Just day's before I had spoken to my sis-in-law who

  told me I could go to the funeral, but it would be awkward because I couldnt speak to anyone. Well, today, I wanted to

  jump in my grandpa's grave(urn) and roll over with him. Just about all of my family, and a few witnesses all talked to me.

  The only two in my family that did no tspeak to me were both uncles, and both elders.(arent they the ones that

  can?) Their kids and wives came to me, hugged me, and encouraged me to come back to the org. My grandma, so

  strong, sat and talked to me for so long about going back to the truth. And all the while, (my cousin, who is the son of the

  elder who did not speak to me) had his arm around me!!!!!!!!!! His Mother came to me, grabbed my face and said

  "you hang in there ok?" My brother, sis in law, every cousin, and aunts and most uncles, some witnesses who all know I

  am df'd, were still there for me!!!!!!! I was just floored. Still am. What I am about to say next will floor some of you!

  I am going back!! I will still post, and love you all for your comfort and support that you have givin me in the last month. I

  couldnt ask for more than I have received from this forum. It may be pretty sad to say, "for now, I am going back for the

  fellowship of my family." But the long run will speak for itself.

  I am sure I will get alot of nice comments, but more not so nice. I'm ready for all!!!!!!!!!!! I am not leaving this forum, just

  making a personal decision that fits my needs. Riding the fence, one foot in and one foot out the door!!!! It will make

  me a hyprocrite! But guess what, I would rather be that, and talk to my family, than not at all. So, good or not so good

  comments I am expecting, and will respect everyones opinions! (And promise not to preach to anyone on this forum!!!!!!!!!!!!)
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  WATCHTOWER AND TOBACCO INDUSTRY???

  by chuckyy in

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  i have heard recently that the society has some sort of financial connections with philip morris the tobacco giant.. is this true???

  chukyy

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  I'd like to make a large donation the the wts and"to all the boys ive loved before"
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  Another "ghostly" experience last night!

  by cindykp in

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  ok, if any of you have read the other thread about ghosts, you will remember that i dont care too much for them!

  just a few minutes ago my daugter told me she had a weird one last night here in the house, where i have never had a problem.

  she was in the bathroom brushing her teeth, and "one "of the holders on the counter that are all made of heavy glass, started shaking back and forth like crazy.

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  Another "ghostly" experience last night!

  by cindykp in

  1. jw
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  ok, if any of you have read the other thread about ghosts, you will remember that i dont care too much for them!

  just a few minutes ago my daugter told me she had a weird one last night here in the house, where i have never had a problem.

  she was in the bathroom brushing her teeth, and "one "of the holders on the counter that are all made of heavy glass, started shaking back and forth like crazy.

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  Hey all

  You know usually I do try to think of some normal explanation for stuff like this. At first I just figured it was cause she was leaning against the counter. So I went in there and shook it with all my might, nothing budged. (there are no trains) If she had bumped it a little, yes I could see that happening. But she said she was no where near it. Who knows. Two of my kids swear they hear the back door open and close alot too. But when they go look, no one is there. I've only heard it one time. Cant mistake that sound, cause the door makes a loud squeaking noise when you open it. Who knows! If I could think of good reasoning for things like this, I would much rather believe that, than having ghosts in my house. That just doesnt sit to well with me.

  And about the comment about my grandpa playing with the toothpaste, maybe he wanted to brush his teeth before the funeral!