it must be same in england coz my dads going hes taking part of it, its a shame coz hes a good lovely man and has changed since i was dfed he knows about 607 and un and maliwa and everything but still thinks jws have the answers
Cordelia
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Elders' School this weekend
by atypical ini don't know if this is true all over the country, but here they are having the elders' school this coming weekend.
i was wondering if there is anybody here who will be going.
if so, i hope we will be getting the scoop afterwards...........
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ok i think i finally have made a decision
by Cordelia insoooooo any of you thats been following my threads thanks (and poor u) i have changed my mind so many times.
i have finally decided that i must stop trying to get reinstated, basically i got dfed 9 months ago had a boyfriend i felt i loved, was married tho still to my hubby who is only just starting to divorce me, (hes waited coz he keeps saying we could try again for the sake of our daughter but he would expect me to be completly in the 'truth') i hid the bf from my family coz they were so heartbroke and i decided to please them i would get reinstated and then fade, but as time went on i realised that wasnt an option as with a family like mine it would be so hard to do, plus there was the bf still hidden poor guy, anyway we spilt up several times, i was a complete physco i kept blaming him for everything,.
anyway last month i put my letter of reinstatement in and sat there scared stiff that they would reinstate me (as that would defo mean the end of the bf) they didnt reinstate me, and i blamed the bf and we spilt for good;.
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Cordelia
thanks so much jgnat u have always helped me so much i dont mean to seem like i havent listened but i made my decision to tell my dad and my bf started being horriable about the way i had treated him in the past and it all went pearshaped and i found myself promising my family i wouldnt see him again, i know i need to do it now its been too long surely to keep coming back to each other like this must mean theres something there!
vitty i know what you mean and carla is ubm unbelieving mates and is that what u are and is it hard? coz i guess us jws expect other people just to understand and i know thats not fair.
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ok i think i finally have made a decision
by Cordelia insoooooo any of you thats been following my threads thanks (and poor u) i have changed my mind so many times.
i have finally decided that i must stop trying to get reinstated, basically i got dfed 9 months ago had a boyfriend i felt i loved, was married tho still to my hubby who is only just starting to divorce me, (hes waited coz he keeps saying we could try again for the sake of our daughter but he would expect me to be completly in the 'truth') i hid the bf from my family coz they were so heartbroke and i decided to please them i would get reinstated and then fade, but as time went on i realised that wasnt an option as with a family like mine it would be so hard to do, plus there was the bf still hidden poor guy, anyway we spilt up several times, i was a complete physco i kept blaming him for everything,.
anyway last month i put my letter of reinstatement in and sat there scared stiff that they would reinstate me (as that would defo mean the end of the bf) they didnt reinstate me, and i blamed the bf and we spilt for good;.
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Cordelia
i understand what you are both saying. but do you understand my piont that if i say about my bf i will lose my family forever and its a big decision to make.
i did decide i would just go back and live my life thru my family but if my bf is willing to have me back then i feel like i should give him a chance.
isnt it a shame that giving him a chance would mean hurting my family (what a bad religon!)
thing is as well, the bf is sick of everything so wants to move in with me (so then id be living in sin) but i dont think hed settle for hiding again, so what do i dooooo?
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HELP ME!!! I'm surrounded!
by wanderlustguy ingawd, i forgot how immersed jw's are.
everything you see has some part of the wts involved with it, from the calendar on the fridge to the pictures on the walls, you can't get away from it.
of course i love my brother to death, but i tell ya, i've only been here overnight and it's already getting to me.
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Cordelia
dfed u are so funny are u winding everyone up on purpose?
u should go my parents house, the days text is on a plate stand so its always open to the right day. and my mum has wrote loads of scriptures which are stuck round the house, the fruitage of the spirit cards are on the bookcase (a different one each day to work on) if u have a cup of tea its on the mugs, she has a card for every occasion printed by some witnesses one i esp remember is a baptisem one with that eunoch scripture on and it says congrats on getting baptized and inside says 'glad nothing prevented you!'
i can remember more but ill spare u all
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ok i think i finally have made a decision
by Cordelia insoooooo any of you thats been following my threads thanks (and poor u) i have changed my mind so many times.
i have finally decided that i must stop trying to get reinstated, basically i got dfed 9 months ago had a boyfriend i felt i loved, was married tho still to my hubby who is only just starting to divorce me, (hes waited coz he keeps saying we could try again for the sake of our daughter but he would expect me to be completly in the 'truth') i hid the bf from my family coz they were so heartbroke and i decided to please them i would get reinstated and then fade, but as time went on i realised that wasnt an option as with a family like mine it would be so hard to do, plus there was the bf still hidden poor guy, anyway we spilt up several times, i was a complete physco i kept blaming him for everything,.
anyway last month i put my letter of reinstatement in and sat there scared stiff that they would reinstate me (as that would defo mean the end of the bf) they didnt reinstate me, and i blamed the bf and we spilt for good;.
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soooooo any of you thats been following my threads thanks (and poor u) i have changed my mind so many times.
BUT
I have finally decided that i must stop trying to get reinstated, basically i got dfed 9 months ago had a boyfriend i felt i loved, was married tho still to my hubby who is only just starting to divorce me, (hes waited coz he keeps saying we could try again for the sake of our daughter but he would expect me to be completly in the 'truth') i hid the bf from my family coz they were so heartbroke and i decided to please them i would get reinstated and then fade, but as time went on i realised that wasnt an option as with a family like mine it would be so hard to do, plus there was the bf still hidden poor guy, anyway we spilt up several times, i was a complete physco i kept blaming him for everything,
anyway last month i put my letter of reinstatement in and sat there scared stiff that they would reinstate me (as that would defo mean the end of the bf) they didnt reinstate me, and i blamed the bf and we spilt for good;
anyway i decided it was better that we werent together and told my dad i would not see him again (coz my dad had cut off all contact coz id made a big stand to him and told him i want to be with the bf and i hurt him so much so when wed spilt i told my dad i could see him again and i wouldnt see the bf)
but after a few weeks of living without my bf i have realised how much i do love him and that i dont want to go to the meetings anymore so i feel that i should just tell my family,
the question is HOW? how do i hurt them so much i wish id been straight from the beginning instead theyve had 9 months of thinking im behaving and trying to get back, and now if i stop going now i will undo all them months of trying, but if i dont stop i feel i will go crazy and get reinstated and lose the bf
awwwwww what should i do and how?
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Fe2O3Baby has arrived
by Fe2O3Girl inour son william grant was born last wednesday 2/11/05 at 20:43, weighing 9lb 2oz (4140g).
we are both really well.. it wasn't the birth experience i had hoped for - on my long list of things i didn't want to happen, the only things i avoided were induction, pethidine, episiotomy (i pushed too efficiently, no time to do it!
) and caesarean.
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Cordelia
CONGRATULATIONS!
my daughter weighed exactly that 9lbs 2! the hardest bit i found was getting her out! (sorry maybe too much info for you lads!)
was he late? how are you settling in now? im so excited for you!
i'll get youre email off dawn and email you soon xxxx
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I have to take a little break...
by AuldSoul in.
i don't think i can successfully put a clamp on my mouth if i don't take a break from this place.
i want my wife to wake up, but i think i can't do what that would take if i keep myself up-to-date on all the worst going on currently in dub-land.. i love you all and i will be back, i just have to take a breather.. auldsoul
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Cordelia
auldsoul, do whats best for you and your family,
i will miss you you are someone that helped me alot by responding on my thread, thanks for that and i hope everything goes well for you.
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guys i really need your help
by Cordelia intodaythings have really come to a head and i have a massive decusion to make by 7pm tonight!.
basically i have been dfed since march tryed to get reinstated two weeks ago but they said no, thing is i only did it for my family esp my dad he is not well and i love him to pieces.
but when i got dfed i had a boyfriend and things have been up and down (hes put up with alot) but he is sticking by my side and i love him and want to be open about him and not lie anymore, .
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Cordelia
just an update to everyone that responded on my thread!
me and the bf are definately over in fact he has turned nasty threatening me with ringing my dad and telling him about us, and telling me ive treated him like s*** for months and its me thats ruined everything, and that unless i move in with him and have a baby and tell my ex about him its over!
I've just told him its over anyway and i hate him for what i have lost for him, (my sisters wedding etc and the hurt i've caused my family) i even went out at weekend and he was there and started saying hed give up anything for me and we should try again and while we were talking some girls came up and said hed kissed their friend earlier in the night! he denyed it then later said shed tried to kiss him! then denyed it again! i know hes lying and i feel so hurt,
so now i feel like i wish i had just faded from the religon and not caused so much hurt i feel like i want to get reinstated for my family and then leave, but i am still gonna mis some meetings and get my head together,
but why do i feel so hurt?? especailly when i know he is no good for me anyway!! even without all his nastiness, i've never felt like this before and it keeps making me want to get in touch with him but i know the best thing is just to never text or ring again isnt it??
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Cordelia
I pioneered for 10 years straight from school so return visits were essental! i never wanted a study tho. i preferred talking to my pioneer partners than about the 'trooth' to some stranger tho i actually helped someone get baptised!
my appoliges everyone!
i honestly believed ALL witnesses did every return visit they got or else would they not just feel TOO guilty!!
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question about where to put something
by pc ini know by that statement i will of course get alot of funny remarks.
what i wanted to know is if something is put in private can only members view it?
what determines who is a member?.
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Cordelia
if you were talking about my EX boyfriend i could of give you an answer!!