Looking forward to the big "A", is like looking forward to living in "city of the damned".
Besides birthdays, christmas,etc, we also have memories to make with ALL our friends and families. I no longer feel that impending sense of "DOOM". We can "waste" time and do things like bunging jumping, or whatever rocks our boat--and not be made to feel guility!
We can love life now, not wait for a life to enjoy!
shelley