Tatiana,
I dont know what to say. I had four kids and knew I couldnt take anymore. I didnt have an education. I only had JWS. Even they told me to take him back. They knew he had abused me on many occasions. I did what I was told. After the first restrainng order I continued to suffer the abuse. When I looked at my sons eyes who was holding my youngest daughter I knew I could no longer let this go on. My son signed the restraining order with me. He was only 10. After the elders got done telling me i had to take him back and apologizing to me i spent the next two years running away from his abuse by working. Finally one night after working 15hrs I came home and he started. I was tired. I hit my head three times before going down. I had a concussion from this time. I didnt care. I couldnt see him, i only saw red literally. I had no use for my life anymore. I couldnt take it. I went after him, not being able to see him only hear him. I told him to finish the job this time I couldnt take anymore. Just kill me get it over with. He tried...my eldest was beating on his father 12yrs old this little guy was...trying to save me. The other child called the police. My ex called them back and told them everything was fine. When he was on the phone..i got away and went to a friends house and called the police. The chief came and sent him away....upon leaving he told me he would be back for me this time to kill me. The chief told him to get out right now or he was going to jail.
That was the end for me that night. 13yrs ago. I have had the hardest time trying to move on in life with men. I just dont ever want that to happen again and dont trust my instincts. I want something better. I want to feel alive and live again. I want to find a man who could love me for who i am. I have not wanted this since my divorce. For the first time in 12yrs, I am actually thinking about moving on. It took that long to get past the till death us do part. I chose no money and working my ass off to make sure my kids could have the world because they loved me so much and I owed them everything I could give them..no excuses. I am tired inside. I want to share the rest of this life with a man who can show me the good things in life.
Your post has me in tears. I know this is still going on and for those women who are still suffering I hurt for them.
We made it! You have some special children!
thank you for posting...like all things, these feelings will pass.
cathy
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When a Woman's Fed Up.......
by Tatiana inwhen a woman's fed up...... a man comes home from work early to surprise his wife with.
my ribs that are stinging me right now is the fact that i. still love you.
killed someone you probably are going to jail for a long.
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I agree...was that on the menu?
The price was just right...i will also have what you are having.
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What is sexy to you?
by Tammie inwhen i read the "gossip" colums of the newspapers.
most of the time they are talking about famous people splitting up.
and who is the most elgible bachular, and so on.. so i pose a question to everyone that reads this.
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Nothing turns me on more than a man who knows where he is going..knows where he has been and knows that life is not about having his clothes ironed or his meal ready, but willing to do those things for me if i can't make it home.
I love a man who smells good and can laugh at life,not other people. A man who looks good in a white shirt...oh my god..i just said that...sorry...i can't help what i like. Just is so sexy when he rolls up his sleeves to get down to work. Throw back from being a JW for 30yrs.
Now for this I would give him anything in return including ironing his shirts and making special diners with candles, the bedroom would be our secret.
He has to love himself above everything else. If he does that I know he is capable of loving me.
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ANYONE IN SUCCESSFUL RELATIONSHIP WITH JW
by Serena inhas anyone had any interfaith relationship with a jw that actually worked?
or are they all doomed from day one?
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If what we have been doing ruins your chances to get into the JWS? LOL>>>
This was to funny. I never understood why men at the hall would get all riled up after a good knecking session. Why would it ruin anything? There is nothing at the hall to begin with. Not even cute guys. Take that back...you have to go kingdom hall jumping, but if you jump long enough you will find the diamond in the rough. Just hope he hasnt been a witness all his life.
I am heartless..dont forget bitch.
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Randy Americans and abstemious Japanese
by expatbrit inall i can say is that for the american sample, they obviously asked a disproportionate amount of women.. sex comes twice a week for brits.
london (reuters) - britons have sex an average of twice a week, have slept with more than eight people and are attracted by a good sense of humour, a global survey says.. .
the survey of sexual habits by condom maker durex has found that britons have sex an average of 107 times a year, less than many other europeans.. .
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Ok,,it isnt the americans pulling down the stats...it is ex jws that are to afraid to go out and have sex.
Personally working through all the crap and moving on. Maybe if we all try to get out more and date the stats would go up...
Will try to do my part.One question..is it because condoms are sold and used in the Uk than in America...i think this might be the number they go by. Just a question from a strange mind.
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A New Scientific Discovery About J.W.'s
by Mindchild inhi all of you wild and funky people,.
by way of introduction, some two decades ago, i left the jehovahs witness ideology at considerable personal costs, from there went forward to get a quality college education and im now a research scientist at an american university.
a few months ago i, along with a team of international scientists, published a scientific paper that addressed a neural-behavioral discovery i had made many years ago that involved jehovahs witnesses.
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This all explains why jws are kooks. They really are!
I can not believe all this work, it is truely amazing. Like Noidea, I am not blonde and I read the magazines religiously, except for the science articles. Ok I give, looking for something in the magazines.
I go believe your work gives a stronger message to all the astrology studies. I don't think I have the patience to sit there and graph all those numbers. Maybe if I learned how to do it I wouldnt mind. Since I am an idiot in that dept will leave graphing up to the professionals.
Great job Mindchild.
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NEW Press Release UN/AJWRB/Silentlambs
by OhHappyDay inat xjw net was an invitation to participate in a press release about the un stuff.. as i told before on this board this issue is most powerfull if well used to show the real face behind the wtbts!!.
even i am not in the us i will gladly contribute for a press release wich states a mix of un/ajwrb/silentlambs.
if some with more language skills than me composes such a press release and releases it in the way mike pence described i will donate 150 usd one or two weeks before the release.. it is tecnically dificult to donate from this distance.
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JWS say this is all a farce. My mom and I got into a heated debate over this.
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What are men scared of???
by Billygoat ini just read tyydyy's post on macho men.
kent had an interesting point:.
i'd say a girl would go for a man - and then i mean someone who isn't scared shitless by a girl with brains!.
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I read your post Joel and while I agree with you that sometimes when so many need you and you are their only caregiver it does get frustrating. I raise three boys and one girl after my divorce. I am not stupid or spineless after having to deal with three boys. I don't have paper certificates because I never had the chance until now to go to college.
The line I used to hear alot was "Wow, you have four kids." Yes I do! That would be the end of that. Now these same guys want to date me with their four kids. NO way am I taking care of more kids for anyone. I don't mind if I am single the rest of my life.
When I rushed around for basketball games, baseball games, for three boys and still had to find time to take care of my daughter..and work 15hrs a day to make ends meet...You are sure I am not going to make more work for myself.
Why do men expect us to take care of their brood when they don't want anything to do with us when we are raising our brood? Help from someone would have been nice.
These are just my personal thoughts about this subject. Don't get upset.
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Harry Potter and JWs?
by CatholicGuy inwhat's the jw line on harry potter?
i took my kiddies last night to see it.
i knew if i didn't take them on the first day of its release i'd be turned in as a deliquent parent!
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Good response to Fred Hall...lol..
Life is suppose to magical and wonderful. Although with JW minds you are not suppose to enjoy life. If you do, you might not make it.
We are only going to live once till we get to heaven. Make the most of it.
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BEAT that Child!
by Farkel inthis is sort of a continuation of threads on dubs and how they are conditioned to discipline their children.
someone questioned whether the society actually encouraged dubs to whup their children.
i only had enough time to dig up a few salient quotes from the wt magazine.
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Thanks for bringing back such wonderful memories. Actually, it is against the law to hit your children. The last meeting I went to the speaker was commanding everyone to spank their children. That was the very last time I went period. I felt they were abusing their leadership role and thus making abusers out of the rest of the flock.
Thank god for the light. One day Jesus said..those that hurt his little sheep will reap what they have sown. Yep...waiting for that day. Tired of being manhandled out to the bathroom for a good old whip ass. Yep and you wonder why I am psychotic.
cathy