Hey everyone i know its been a while since i posted but today i felt the need.Just wanted to update you all on my position which is STILL BRAINWASHED!I just dont know what to do i gain my strength to conquer this disease,(thats what i call being born in the org) from others like freedom lover who have come out of this religon free and clear i know its not easy but i know it can be done.I dont know why i just cant get over it and move on already,but theres thats piece of me that says,but what if?Then im back, screwed and tatooed with JDUB on my forehead,thinking that Jehovah is upset and dissapointed with me and Satan has me in his grasp.Im stil sooo confused even with all the evidence pointing to they are full of crap!What if they arent?I just want to know the truth even if i dont choose to follow it,I want to know if Jehovah is watching me torment myself every day,going back and forth and i cant take it anymore.Then i think what if there is no Jehovah?Who the hell am i praying to with my daughter at night?(the air mabe)You see my daughter still believes even though she is ready to celebrate halloween this year and yes we bought her a costume,cinderella!My mother comes and takes her every now and then only if i promise to go to some meetings and i did last weekend i attended the sunday meeting for once in a about 6 months!Felt strange to be there but once again going to a different cong i got love bombed.Btw i feel guilty and scared about having anything to do with halloween this year.Yup still dealing with the guilt,fear,agony,of knowing and believing in the dubs,for so long now trying desperately to get out without feeling the way i do.I just dont know what to do anymore and its a shame because the dubs have sucked the life out of me(guess i didnt check my doubts soon enough).If i dont get off the fence soon im going to go nuts.I like believeing that Satan doesnt even exist and that there is no heavenly org.Gives me peace of mind that i can just live my life,if theres a god,FINE,Is it Jehovah?Thats where the conflict arises and i cant just go on with my life thinking Jehovah has lost me to the other side! HELP!!Im not a lost cause yet guys.I NEED NEW LIGHT! (side joke lol!!!!) Seriously though my husband has helped me a great deal through this battle and i can only hope he continues.There is just a huge difference in the way we feel,he is not burdened by his upbringing he believes what he believes whole heartedly and i want to also.One thing though he will never understand, what it is like to be born in the org grow up in the org spend your teenage years and some of your adulthood in it,then find out that they might not be THE TRUTH! Let me say its earth shattering! i felt,so terrible.I can be thankful though for Mr.gringojj who i love more than life itself,he has been going through hell and high water to help me live my life happily.Thats all for now,please some words of encouragement? AG
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Still on the fence!
by acuragirl inhey everyone i know its been a while since i posted but today i felt the need.just wanted to update you all on my position which is still brainwashed!i just dont know what to do i gain my strength to conquer this disease,(thats what i call being born in the org) from others like freedom lover who have come out of this religon free and clear i know its not easy but i know it can be done.i dont know why i just cant get over it and move on already,but theres thats piece of me that says,but what if?then im back, screwed and tatooed with jdub on my forehead,thinking that jehovah is upset and dissapointed with me and satan has me in his grasp.im stil sooo confused even with all the evidence pointing to they are full of crap!what if they arent?i just want to know the truth even if i dont choose to follow it,i want to know if jehovah is watching me torment myself every day,going back and forth and i cant take it anymore.then i think what if there is no jehovah?who the hell am i praying to with my daughter at night?
(the air mabe)you see my daughter still believes even though she is ready to celebrate halloween this year and yes we bought her a costume,cinderella!my mother comes and takes her every now and then only if i promise to go to some meetings and i did last weekend i attended the sunday meeting for once in a about 6 months!felt strange to be there but once again going to a different cong i got love bombed.btw i feel guilty and scared about having anything to do with halloween this year.yup still dealing with the guilt,fear,agony,of knowing and believing in the dubs,for so long now trying desperately to get out without feeling the way i do.i just dont know what to do anymore and its a shame because the dubs have sucked the life out of me(guess i didnt check my doubts soon enough).if i dont get off the fence soon im going to go nuts.i like believeing that satan doesnt even exist and that there is no heavenly org.gives me peace of mind that i can just live my life,if theres a god,fine,is it jehovah?thats where the conflict arises and i cant just go on with my life thinking jehovah has lost me to the other side!
!im not a lost cause yet guys.i need new light!
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Is there anything the WTS could do.............
by acuragirl inthis is a question for believers of the wts.
is there anything that the wts could do to make you not believe anymore?
what would it take for them to shatter your faith?
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The reason I ask this question is we all know about the false prophecies, the un thing, child molestation scandals etc. Many people still remain in the org. If the WTS told you you HAD to give some amount fo money, would you do it? Remember all the cults that had leaders that convinced them all to commit suicide. If the WTS told you to do that, would you leave then? What would it take?
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Is there anything the WTS could do.............
by acuragirl inthis is a question for believers of the wts.
is there anything that the wts could do to make you not believe anymore?
what would it take for them to shatter your faith?
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Is there anything the WTS could do.............
by acuragirl inthis is a question for believers of the wts.
is there anything that the wts could do to make you not believe anymore?
what would it take for them to shatter your faith?
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This is a question for believers of the WTS. Is there anything that the WTS could do to make you not believe anymore? What would it take for them to shatter your faith? Everyone has their breaking point. Whats yours?
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Hi everyone I am new here
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this is a new thread started from the one my husband left yesterday............ hi everyone,this is gringojjs wife.i thankyou all for your comments and your help,really makes me feel better about my situation especially since i see that most of what im going through alot of you have been through the exact same thing.it makes me realize im not the only one and that i can get through this tough time like most of you have.i can really identify with the poster who made the comments about being scared after leaving,not realizing if it was the right decision or not.i am really scared of armagedon,of invisible wicked forces the wts teaches you to turn away from,just like the poster i watched a horror film a couple nights ago and it was about demonism,i was extremely scared i was going to be bothered by the demons for getting involved in watching those kinds of movies.its ridiculus how scared i was,just believing in satan and his demons,and what they could or could not do.something my husband doesnt really understand because he doesnt believe in satan or jehovah or a god at all,but when you do believe its scary to think you are upseting god or on the side of satan.i dont know where i am at right now i do know that im confused,the witnesses coming to the door,halloween coming up......which btw i celebrated last year but my concience is really doing me in this time.........i dont know what to do with the kids !
do they celebrate do they not?i dont know, when the time comes mabe i will but i know one thing i have to make a choice, for my husbands sake,for my sanity,and for our children.i am glad i have people to share my pain and suffering with,my mother says i dont want to suffer at all because im afraid of losing my husband if i become baptized,she says thats what you have to do for the truth....suffer....im not going to be happy suffering through life and for what?mabe nothing.i am not afraid of losing my husband i am afraid of dissapointing my mom but im not going to stay in a religon that makes me totally screwed up in the head.i used to have panic attacks when i was attending meetings i havent had one since not attending,i still have exterme anxiety from worry and fear but no panic attacks....hm....go figure!last thing,the other day a born again christian approched me by my local post office and asked me if i was interested in attending his church.i simply told him no thankyou my children are already screwed up enough from the jws.
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This is a new thread started from the one my husband left yesterday...........
Hi everyone,this is gringojjs wife.I thankyou all for your comments and your help,really makes me feel better about my situation especially since i see that most of what im going through alot of you have been through the exact same thing.It makes me realize im not the only one and that i can get through this tough time like most of you have.I can really identify with the poster who made the comments about being scared after leaving,not realizing if it was the right decision or not.I am really scared of armagedon,of invisible wicked forces the wts teaches you to turn away from,just like the poster i watched a horror film a couple nights ago and it was about demonism,i was extremely scared i was going to be bothered by the demons for getting involved in watching those kinds of movies.Its ridiculus how scared i was,just believing in satan and his demons,and what they could or could not do.Something my husband doesnt really understand because he doesnt believe in satan or jehovah or a god at all,but when you do believe its scary to think you are upseting god or on the side of satan.I dont know where i am at right now i do know that im confused,the witnesses coming to the door,halloween coming up......which btw i celebrated last year but my concience is really doing me in this time.........I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH THE KIDS ! Do they celebrate do they not?I dont know, when the time comes mabe i will but i know one thing i have to make a choice, for my husbands sake,for my SANITY,and for our children.I am glad i have people to share my pain and suffering with,my mother says i dont want to suffer at all because im afraid of losing my husband if i become baptized,she says thats what you have to do for the truth....suffer....Im not going to be happy suffering through life and for what?Mabe nothing.I am not afraid of losing my husband i am afraid of dissapointing my mom but im not going to stay in a religon that makes me totally screwed up in the head.I used to have panic attacks when i was attending meetings i havent had one since not attending,i still have exterme anxiety from worry and fear but no panic attacks....hm....go figure!Last thing,the other day a born again christian approched me by my local post office and asked me if i was interested in attending his church.I simply told him no thankyou my children are already screwed up enough from the JWS.
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JW just emailed me a new experience
by acuragirl ina pioneer sister just emailed me a new experience this morning.
i just wanted to post is to see if anyone recognized it as a generic jw experience or if it was genuine.
how are things...i hope all is well with each one of you.
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A pioneer sister just emailed me a new experience this morning. I just wanted to post is to see if anyone recognized it as a generic jw experience or if it was genuine. Here it is:
Hello everyone!
How are things...I hope all is well with each one of you. I wanted to share an awesome experience that some friends and I had in service yesterday (despite the heat) it was a wonderful day!
In the morning we were doing territory (5 of us) and the brother working alone found a woman at home who said that she already has some of JW's call on her, but the person she is on the phone with would like the magazines and asked her to take them for her. So the brother said, "Sure!" ..then the woman said "Wait a minute, she would like you to bring them to her house is that possible?" so she gave us her address and the brother asked for a convienent time to visit with the woman and she said ...."right now, she will be waiting". So as soon as we finished the street we went to find this woman at the address given and 2 friends went in and ended up being in the house for 30 minutes. They came out and said....she wants us to come back at 3 o'clock to study with her. THroughout the remainder of the morning we all discussed the lady's questions and her biggest concern was that of "Why does God permit suffering?" She blames God for all of the injustice in the world. So after everyone's thoughts and comments...it was decided that the best publication to be studied with the woman would be the new release from Saturday of the convention! ( i wont say the title incase you havent been yet). At 3 o'clock the sister and I went back to study with the woman....she had many many questions...and we had to explain we can only tackle one at a time for a clear understanding (haha) She started to cry when reading the scripture that says "...he cares for you." She had a very hard time believing that Jehovah God could care for her....she has been through many difficulties and felt it was because she was a bad person...Trying to reassure her..we used her bible to show her that Satan is the cause of these problems and the ruler of this world .... She couldnt believe it.....her question now is Where did satan come from.....we are going back on friday to discuss this with her....
Isn't that amazing.....the sister and I and many others were very excited/encouraged....so we wanted to share it with many others ... to keep in mind that there still are those that are searching for the truth!!!!
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Need help on KM songs
by acuragirl incan someone please tell me the first song numbers from the july km?
i need july 11th and july 25th.
all i need is the numbers of the first song that is sung.
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someones got to have this?
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Need help on KM songs
by acuragirl incan someone please tell me the first song numbers from the july km?
i need july 11th and july 25th.
all i need is the numbers of the first song that is sung.
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Thanks blondie now i just need july 25th anyone?
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Need help on KM songs
by acuragirl incan someone please tell me the first song numbers from the july km?
i need july 11th and july 25th.
all i need is the numbers of the first song that is sung.
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Anyone?
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Need help on KM songs
by acuragirl incan someone please tell me the first song numbers from the july km?
i need july 11th and july 25th.
all i need is the numbers of the first song that is sung.
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Can someone please tell me the first song numbers from the july km? I need july 11th and july 25th. All i need is the numbers of the first song that is sung. I am trying to register with jwmatch to see if anyone from my old cong is on there i think it would be quite funny. Thanks!