As always when talking to my brother I come to a higher state of awareness. At eight years my senior, he challenges and prods me. I need that from time to time to keep me honest. We talked this morning.
I asked him if it bothered him that his mother was trapped in a concept. He said that he wasn't because its all down to perception. The collaborative thought became that this life is all about perception the idea that the betterment of ones self is all down to the eyes. If my mother believes wholeheartedly that she is doing the right thing and in that hurts no one and even helps them to have in some ways a higher quality of life, is she to be faulted? Part of me says no, other parts of me yes.
If my mother gains the entire world as convert yet loses her last born, her most heavily trained child to a perverted concept of "love", then really what has she gained? I allow my mother to continue her existence in ignorance because she seems to need it. My mother is a bible Ninja. She will dismantle you with her NWT, mixed with a bit of selective reasoning and creative wit.
The question is what if its okay? What if I just allow her to be? She's safe, focused, goal oriented and proud of her accomplishments. My mother is not a stupid person. She chooses her life based on what she thinks she'll gain from it. Her ignorance is self imposed but that ignorance is her happiness. Who am I to take it from her?
But what if thats okay?
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What if....?
by coolhandluke inas always when talking to my brother i come to a higher state of awareness.
at eight years my senior, he challenges and prods me.
i need that from time to time to keep me honest.
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Sharing music
by coolhandluke infmz introduced me to this particular band called nile.
there is a song of theirs called die rache krieg lied der assyriche which is a song of assyrian death curses and marching.
imho?
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It sounds cool I saved it. My first reaction. Music from the demons in hell. Satins warriors.
Embrace your paganess.
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Sharing music
by coolhandluke infmz introduced me to this particular band called nile.
there is a song of theirs called die rache krieg lied der assyriche which is a song of assyrian death curses and marching.
imho?
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Not sure that all will like this. FMZ introduced me to this particular band called Nile. There is a song of theirs called Die Rache Krieg Lied Der Assyriche which is a song of Assyrian death curses and marching. IMHO? F-ing Badass. Tell me what you think
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Sexual Details in Disfellowshipping hearing?
by Medic!? ini couldn't find if this was a previous topic, so i apologize in advance if it has been posted.. i am 28 years old, i have been df'd for 7-8 of those.
my parents were converted when i was 2 years old by the whole family on my mother's side.
however, about 5-10 years into it, all of that side of the family were df'd or da'd because they wanted to have sex with multiple people or smoke, drink, gamble, cuss, or whatever else they wanted.
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nah. this happened to me too during my 1st committe meeting. the second i sent my best friend (an elder) as my proxy. i was busy with my worldly gf. any who... they asked all sorts of sick details. "did you touch her genitals? did you bring her to orgasm? was it intentional? did you fondle her breasts? both breasts? was the contact incidental? did you do it purposly? wait. wait wait. you slept in her bed but did not penetrate her? did you attempt to? no? i think you are lying. you mean to tell me that you slept in her bed the entire night and did not engage in sexualy intercourse? you are lying."
wonderful men these. i get they were trying to determine if i commited the acts on purpose or if i was repentant and all, but there are better, less humiliating ways of going about it. but then there is less to think about when they have to mount their sows for wives later on.
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Is your avatar you?
by Swamboozled ini always assume that people with real pics for their avatars are pics of that poster.
obviously that's not always the case.
i'm curious about whose pic is really them.
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who else could pull off a kilt like that?
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My story continued
by Paralipomenon inthanks everyone for your comments.
yes i was in deep.
if i was just a little less curious i have no doubt that i'd be super elder today.
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im aching for part 3. where is it?!?!
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What is your favorite classical music piece and artist?
by restrangled insince modern music keeps coming up, we need to address the classical!
what are your favorite pieces and the artists?
if you play an instrument, pick the piece that's your favorite to play or you wish you could play.. r.. my favorite is fantasy impromtu by chopin.
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rachmaninov's third. it is insane to see that performed live. made me all emotional
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purpose
by coolhandluke inagent smith said:there is no escaping reason; no denying purpose.
because as we both know, without purpose, we would not exist.
it is purpose that created us.
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i think lonely sums it up best with the mind fuc& comment. it all gets relegated to just breathing.
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purpose
by coolhandluke inagent smith said:there is no escaping reason; no denying purpose.
because as we both know, without purpose, we would not exist.
it is purpose that created us.
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some days Daystar, i freaking love you man.
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Words of wisdom/compassion/love???
by unique1 inok, my parents are shunning me, but i refuse to do the same to them.
i do not believe it is proper to shun people and i won't be led by their guidelines.
i am sending my parents an anniversary gift and card.
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speak of a specific memory of them together that you hold close to your heart. describe it in the detail of whatever age you remember. thats it. i think that would do everything that you want it to