Posts by coolhandluke

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Follow up on going to college

by noni1974 in

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i posted about going to college and getting my ged.

this is an update on that.. .

i am now enrolled in college.

Follow up on going to college

by noni1974 in

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i posted about going to college and getting my ged.

this is an update on that.. .

i am now enrolled in college.

I NEVER post here anymore but happened to see this. Noni? I am so freaking proud of you. This is amazing. Damn. I wish I could express more how amazing this is. Good for you. Keep it going. Can't wait to see how well you do.

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My mom

by coolhandluke in

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i don't know.

i think i'd tell her to give it up.

we all know that life is a constant redefinition of our former selves.

coolhandluke

Thank you all so very much for taking the time to help me with this.

Especially you Big Tex

This is, I believe, true love. The ability to accept someone as they are, rather than who you would have them be.

That is perfect. Exactly how I was feeling in the conversation with her. Thanks for sharing so much, for just taking the time man. Thank you.

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coolhandluke is schizophrenic because God is the problem

by coolhandluke in

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i was having a discussion on another board when this jem popped up regarding my vacillating belief in a higher power.

the poster said that i was schizo.

then i made a rebuttal.

coolhandluke

huh...

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coolhandluke is schizophrenic because God is the problem

by coolhandluke in

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i was having a discussion on another board when this jem popped up regarding my vacillating belief in a higher power.

the poster said that i was schizo.

then i made a rebuttal.

coolhandluke

i was having a discussion on another board when this jem popped up regarding my vacillating belief in a higher power. the poster said that i was schizo. then i made a rebuttal.

How can you say you don't beleive in God, but you hate God. You hate God, but according to you He dosn't exist, you are nuts.
You said God, "is the single thing that holds us back from progress". You, who hate God cant even progress to proper English.

lets go back to this i dont believe in God or as i like to call him "god" thing. i dont know if the f*cker exists or he doesnt. lets be real buddy, neither do you. you just hope that he does and by your actions are erring on the side of caution just in case you might get something out of the deal. so i vacillate honestly. i mean who doesn't like the cracker jack prize? i never thought that paradise or heaven or whatever was enough to serve god when i was a jw. i still don't. if you want to be real about it the only reason to serve him is that he deserves the honor and the praise.

lets review that last part. does god deserve honor and praise? if god exists in the form you say he does - someone alive, aware, conscious, just and moral - then none of those things about him are true based on the world scene. there is a disconnect there. its either one or the other. that there is some universal bet going on with the devil isn't enough of a reason to allow the world to exist as it does. just not. where do i get that from? a "god-given" sense of justice if we are playing by your definitions.

lets play by my half hearted definitions - god doesn't exist. you drive your life. when you die thats all. you don't get another go round. your fate is to fertilize plants from now on. 21 grams rule aint in effect. yes i said aint. i hope that doesnt bother you. aint aint aint aint. okay. im done. sorry. its like taking a giant sh*t, this belief. its so freeing. your moral compass is your own. your freedoms are your own. your choices are your own. none of these things are anymore driven by fear of displeasing someone else but fear of disappointing yourself. how much more pure is that? what you do every day isn't defined by losing out on the promise of someone who doesn't seem to be able to keep people from being oppressed on even a small scale let alone prosperous on a large one.

id like to believe that there is something past this level of consciousness. but its just a guess at this point. why do i want to believe that? it means that i'll never stop growing, that i have the potential to evolve past what i am to something greater. but really this is just a fear of dying and some delusions of grandeur. i want there to be some 'thing' that spawned life so i can ask it questions that i'll never have the answers to in this mortal coil. and if you take a second i think you'll realize that my desire to believe is the same reason why you whole heartedly believe.

my .02

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My Story: Part 9 Journeys End

by truthseeker in

part 1: http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/163998/1.ashx.

part 2: http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/164136/1.ashx.

part 3: http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/7/164163/1.ashx.

coolhandluke

so is your family still in?

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Paul Newman takes a few last laps -

by james_woods in

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i just thought some might like to know the latest about actor and racing driver paul newman -.

lime rock park racetrack was closed down for about an hour and a half today so that he could take a few last laps in his gt1 corvette.. newman has incurable cancer and is not expected to live much past september.. there were not many like him..

coolhandluke

Someone gave me this name a while ago. I love Paul Newman. I loved his character. Watching that movie did wonders for my mind. It helped me to understand that no one can chain your mind if you don't let them.

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My Story: Part 5 The Wilderness Years

by truthseeker in

part 1: http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/163998/1.ashx.

part 2: http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/164136/1.ashx.

part 3: http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/7/164163/1.ashx.

coolhandluke

I've been reading your story. I find it interesting. I thought I'd comment to encourage you to finish it. I'm sure that I'm not alone in reading it and not thanking you for taking the time to post it. I can understand your isolation. I had a few close friends while I was 'in' but for the most part I was on the fringe like you were. My problem was relationships with worldly girls. Looking back on it there is a wonder that I was not out sooner but I was a true believer. I related to what you said about the cliques. I was alone in a lot of it because I was so holier than thou. This went well with pioneering but I was from a family with a single mother so I wasn't allowed inside the inner folds a lot. In general pioneering was what brought me closer to people, that and giving talks.

One time when I was being considered to be a ministerial servant the PO said to me, "You need to be more sociable, interact more with the servants and elders like my sons". I had to bite my tongue. I asked him if he was going to set up play dates with his boys for me because as it stood they wanted nothing to do with me. (black kid, small rinkydink white town) I never made ministerial servant. As I look back it seems so much like a popularity contest instead of what it should have been which was serving God to the best of my ability and having a desire to help others do the same. That and the whole speak my mind thing ultimately doomed me in the eyes of advancement.

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Brief Story of Leaving the JWs

by Shepherd Book in

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my wife posted her story of how she came to leave the religion: http://mamablogess.blogspot.com/

coolhandluke

very cool. thank your wife on my behalf. im off to look at your site with the watchtower correspondance.

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I was promoted to Blackbelt this past weekend...

by Hecklerboy in

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it was a total surprise.

i wasn't supposed to be promoted for another 4 months but my sensie thought i was ready.

as we all lined up at the beginning of the belt test i was in front with the other brown belts.

coolhandluke

Martial arts are highly rewarding. I miss my class. Not been able to find a dojo that I like here since moving from Kansas City. My martial art is Krav Maga. Which do you practice?