I just read David_10's thread "My mother died..." 13 years ago I called my mother, after I had left the LIE because I'm gay. I hadn't been disfellowshipped at that point, but she told me she didn't want to keep in contact because "being homosexual is one of the worst things." I told her OK and have never tried to contact her again. Many people in David_10's thread that one should continue to try to reconcile with parents who are shunning us. I just don't feel like I want to do that. Mrs. Kessel, my mother, will be 84 this year, so there may not be much time left. However, about 8 years ago I underwent some therapy during which I discovered she had emotionally abandonned when I was very young because even then it was apparent that I was gay. She was very ashamed of having a gay son. I feel guilty about not wanting to try to contact her, but is it worth it?