i do not think you can leave the organization and not have scars...some very very deep that will last forever.....how much you change and grow after wards i think depends on you as a person and also the environment you are in...
i hope the best for you...you have some deep scars i know...i suggest taking small steps and going just one day at a time....((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( lyin eyes ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))