Wow Lady Lee! Hats off to you! It was a courageous thing that you did and given your choices at the time totally justified in my book!
Once I'd lost my faith and was in the process of leaving the Borg, I too had a difficult choice to make: stay in a loveless marriage to a witness 11 yrs my senior, suicide or leave. She became so aggresive when I had made it clear that I was leaving the Borg, especially after several meetings with the elders failed to address any of the issues I was having with my faith, the Truth, the organisation and the scriptures. I've never experienced aggression like that from any woman before or since (despite having had several relationships since - well perhaps except one displayed similar, but that's for another day): she became emotionally, verbally and physically aggresive!
I remember standing by the Thames, looking at fast flowing the brown waters below. It was cold and the tears were making he ink run on the note in my hand. But I lacked the courage to go through with it. So I had to take the only other option: leave, even if that meant more pain for both of us. But I don't regret that decision now.
Even though there were no children and no assets to fight over (I took only my clothes & my LPs and the old tattered turntable I bought when still at uni and left her and the furniture in a rent controlled 2 bed maisonette in central london), she was so vindictive that the divorce process took 3 years longer than it should have and cost me £10K in legal fees! It was some consolation that the judge in the final court hearing the judge told her in no uncertain terms that she had wasted solicitors time, wasted the courts time and his time and he didn't want to see this case in from of him ever again!
Some behaviour for an upstanding member of the cong., who'd been a pioneer for a decade at the time!
