On the what to wear thing...
You're a depressed person, dont pretty yourself up too much, the worse you look, the worse you'll feel and the acting will come naturally!!
Loooooooooonnnng skirt of course, baggy top. very flat shoes, no makeup, see, you're depressed already aren't you! In the role!
The elders cannot handle women and 'emotions'. Just tell them you're so confused, you cry all the time, you might need to see the doctor, you just cant think about the meetings or bear to think about Armageddon (this might offset your comments about jehovah not caring)
fingers crossed for you.
Poppy xx