((((( Elsewhere )))))
first off, let me just say how sorry I am that your family treats you this way. It is despicable and indicative of the true evil of this organization.
I think that therapy is always a good idea in situations such as these. It helps to have a professioal to talk toand work through these issues. I think the ulimate goal, even though you said you don't want it, is to come to terms and be at peace with your situation. You have to bear in mind the lock that their religion has on their minds and this effects their actions toward you. Hopefully things will get better, but if they do not it is out of yur control and thats what you have to be at peace with. It also helps to have friends and I hope that this board and others that you know help in that regard. Its very theraputic to come here and read the experiences of those who have lived through the same things that we have.
I sincerely hope that things get better between you and your family Elsewhere.