in a wierd way i'm comforted in knowing i'm not the only one done this way by jw family and friends. actually , i cannot claim any jw friends.
i was nver da'd or d'fd, but just kind off drifted off into oblivion. when i really needed help, the elders would not help. but they did call on occasion to see if i would go back to meetings. the sad part is i had 4 small kids, stuck in a "holler" in tenn. no car, husband who was a lousy provider and alcholic to boot( always had beer money, but the electric meter got yanked off the house many times)
i remember after we moved to this place(i hated it there so much) that i got to the tues. book study, after much hassle(kids, car, long drive) now mind you my kids were not perfect, but a dirty look from me would stop them in their tracks.
the study was held in the home of an older couple(elder and pioneer wife) whose gorgous home was out of a magazine. i was as entranced as my kids were, but made doubly sure they never left my side.
so after the study was thru, this loving sister took me aside and i thought she was about to compliment me and my well behaved brood( as often happened believe it or not) but ,alas, she quietly suggested i attend the book study at the hall.it would be more suited for my children and myself to attend. you know, easy accsess to potty, other children. i was never so crushed. needless to say i never went back, and the hall was 15 miles further out.
this has pretty much been the way it was my whole jw life. but i do have to say, that i would love to see these ppl now, and show them the true agape love i have learned. it ain't been easy, and some days it's a struggle to not get mad about the past, but i'm learning to get over it. they all have the same problems we do, just complicated by stupid jw'isms that make a hard life worse.