Disgust---at those in the highest levels, because they know they are NOT God's organization, yet they won't buck-up and accept responsibility. Come clean and change things to the way they ought to be.
Saddness---for my friends are enslaved. They are trying so hard to do what is right.
Terrified--- that it could cost them their very lives, due to the blood policy.
Frustrated----(I can totally relate to Tuesday's response.) It seems like nothing gets through.
Hope--- having faith that something will eventually get through. Even if I don't get the chance to see it happen.
Love--- I truly love my JW friends. It's not conditional upon them jumping through any hoops.