CyberJesus i am glad you know exactly what the Society is because ultimately, awareness is what will save others from the same fate. I can imagine it hurts sometimes, but be proud because you made it through what has broken so many others. You freed yourself, you made the choice to become free. Hold that head high buddy, because you are fucking amazing.
I had 3 very rough years, anger and severe depression amongst other issues. My anxiety was intolerable. Now Medication and a beautiful family see me through. You'll get there in the end!