Ashi,
Thanks for your post. I can relate to how you feel. I think that sometimes the exjw movement is lacking in patience (myself included). How we would all love to see the borg come crashing down in a single day, like the walls of Jericho. That realistically is not going to happen.
A few months ago, somebody started posting here, I can't remember what their screen name was. He/she was studying Watchtowerism, and wasn't sure about some things, and they had found this website. The end result was that they discontinued their study. This shows that collectively we are making a difference. The more people that post here, the more diverse the experiences and opinions, the more likely a doubting lurker will be able to find a poster they relate to. We all contribute in a small way. There are many instances of persons who came here (or to H20, or Channel C), thinking they were gonna find out how wrong and wacked out 'postates are, only to have their eyes slowly opened to what a wicked religious org they're involved with. One person at a time!
This place was so helpful for me in getting out, I don't know what I would have done without it. It was SO nice finding so many people who came to feel the same way I did about the WT, that it is a smothering, abusive CULT. The WT propagandized us to death about how evil 'postates are. So untrue.
I may be experiencing something similar to you, kind of an "OK, what now?" sort of feeling. I don't want to live in my JW past for the rest of my life, but when you spend years in an org that directed your every waking minute, it is hard to adjust to the freedom.