Hey there l2bw
Listen i don't know all the psycology of your situation....but in my experience we tend to pick parteners of the same type throughout life. For some reason you pick men that abuse you emotionally. Why that is, is something only you can figure out but it usually goes back to our childhood. I would recommend seeing a relationship counsellor, purely for your own benefit. It's a tough old deal this love game. You're not a failure!!!!! I've seen lots of women abused by men and it stinks darling. Neglect is abuse, nasty words are abuse, not fullfilling you emotionally is abuse. Break the chain sweetie. I'm going through a tough time myself at the moment.Whatever you work out i wish you a sound and strong mind.
Peace
Lowden xx