Posts by Nowman

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When's the last time you went to the Kingdom Hall?

by JH in

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it's been a little over a year for me.. about 15 months..

how many atheist and agnostics on this site

by dannygwalsh in

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hi everyone just a question to satisfy my curiosity , and if you are a non believer are you happier for being so

I am an agnostic, and I fine with it. I am a person that really doesn't know for sure, and I really don't put alot of effort into finding out. This is because I feel I would wind up back where I started anyway. I think "it is what it is".

Nikki

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Jw from Illinois

by Jeepthing in

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anyone here from granite city, ill. or area around here?

Nowman

I m from Illinois but never heard of Granite City, could you give me some nearby towns?

Nikki

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Was Being A Witness, All THAT Bad???

by minimus in

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i mean, you could've been made to be an islamic fundamentalist or something, right?

Nowman

Being a witness was YUCKY

Having my life now is YUMMY

Nikki

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After you left JWs how did you work out what you believe now

by awol in

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i left jws 10 yrs ago and have just considered myself drifted.

never df'd.

could never go back as i personally found it too hard to live up to.

Nowman

Yes, the world can be a scary place, it always has been really, people just did not hear everything going on because as you know now a days, we can see and hear about everything through TV, radio, internet, etc. But, I can't live my life (now this is me personally) always wondering if I am doing the right thing, but I am not saying that I don't wonder at all, I think being a good human being causes you to wonder if you are doing the right thing or not on occasion.

I have a family, a really good life which I am proud of. I think to myself, "I must be doing something right" to be blessed with a wonderful husband, a nine year old daughter Haley, and a seven year old son Dylan, and also one on the way, which by the way is a GIRL!!! I ve just learned thoughtout my life that I do not have to have answers to all my former questions. Ok, I do not have faith in some kind of higher power, or what ever, but somehow this is OK with me. I'll find out when I find out, when that happens I do not know.

Yet, as I said above, this is how I personally feel about it, it works for me. I ve been out of the org for 15 years now, when I 1st left, I constantly struggled with guilt. But that was because I was raised in cult, I was raised to be brainwashed. This went away after some time, I just can't believe, if there is a God, he would destroy all the people that weren't Jehovahs Witnesses, or those that are ignorant. Is God going to destroy my two little children if Armagedon comes because their mom is an apostate? I do not think so. I would not want them to believe in that God anyway.

So, I ve gone on a tangent. Basically, there were numerous ways to work out what I believe in. It probably will not work for everyone, but it did for me. I want to continue to learn, grow, raise my children, enjoy life...and continue on my free spirited path!

Nikki

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question for Atheists with children?

by unbeliever in

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what do you tell your children about god or his lack of existance?

i know i have a long time before i have to deal with this but my jw mom did ask me what i will teach my son about god.

i have no plans to tell him god is real.

Nowman

I m an agnostic but I am going to reply anyway. I am divorced and remarried. My ex-husbands wife talks about God to my kids alot. Thats ok as long as shes not pushy about it. But, myself, when my kids asks me about God, I tell them how I feel about it, then I tell them its up to them, what they want to be believe in. On the other hand, I also tell them what I know about the bible for education purposes. Obviously, what I have taught them is based on when I was a JW but I try to keep what I have said in line with what other religions teach, (ie: Noah and the ark, etc). I want them to make their own decisions, and without regularity in going to church, or whatever in their childhood, they are growing up just fine.

Nikki

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Finally told the family

by unique1 in

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while at the great corporate monster we call walley world, i ran into my uncle and aunt.

all of my family with the exception of my parents are not and have never been in the truth.

because of this i never really saw them much growing up.

Nowman

Thats what happened to me too 15 years ago. I never really saw my family growing up because my parents and one great aunt were witnesses. So, when I left home at 18, my dad's father and stepmother took me in until I found a place, they were so happy I was not a JW anymore. Same thing with my mom's family. I could attend all the holiday get togethers, it was awesome. It was like getting to know my immediate family all over again. I loved it...

I am happy for you, maybe they may feel bad for you for all that wasted time, but I know they are so happy to be be able to associate with you as family, to make up for lost time.

Nikki

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Saw My Mother!!!

by RichieRich in

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i was on my way home today, and i passed my mother on the road.

tears came to my eyes immediately, just at the sight of her face.. i hate this religion.. but i love my mom.. i can't even remember, when the last time we spoke was.. i just want to sit down and talk to her, but i can't- i won't- because its her fault.

i left a religion, she left her son.

Nowman

An added note to my post....back in 1992 to earlier this year, I did not know about this site, so I really did not have a common bond with people that were or who went through the same thing, the people that I knew were so wonderful but they did not understand, but you have many people here to give you encourgement. I am not saying that the hurt or the anger goes away because of JWD, I guess I am just saying, I wish I would have discovered it earlier.

My parents broke my heart many times while I was in the org and out, they were so cold. But they were and are (Dad only now) are so fricken brainwashed, they lived in a bubble, such a waste.

Nikki

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Saw My Mother!!!

by RichieRich in

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i was on my way home today, and i passed my mother on the road.

tears came to my eyes immediately, just at the sight of her face.. i hate this religion.. but i love my mom.. i can't even remember, when the last time we spoke was.. i just want to sit down and talk to her, but i can't- i won't- because its her fault.

i left a religion, she left her son.

Nowman

Dear Richie,

I was very hurt when my parents disowned me over this religion. I did self destructive things. I was very angry. I hated that cult and the main reason I left at the time was because of my parents even though I loved them very much. As some may know here, I have not seen my dad since October 1992, and my mom and I did not see each other from 1992-2000 when we reunited in Arizona. She eventually was disfellowshipped and is no longer a JW. It was a dream come true. I know 100% how you feel. I understand that it hurts very much. All I can say is, it takes time. I don't feel angry anymore, I just feel sorry for my dad now, he's the one losing out on so much and wasting his life.

Nikki

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Are you happy with your name?

by greendawn in

we do not choose our names our parents do so, are you pleased with the one they picked for you?

if not what would you like your name to be?

i am very pleased with my name, nicolas.

Nowman

I m a Nicole, I do not hate it, but I prefer to be called Nikki. I look like a Nikki too. I was actually born Gina Maria, but my mom changed my name to Nicole Marie so I wouldn't be made fun of, I guess Gina Maria was part of a saying...can't remember....

If I could choose my own name...I would have just named me Nikki.