Pete and Painted.....you are not alone. I suspect that there are a large proportion in our age group ( 50+ years old) that suffer from the ill effects of this 'psychological torture' masquerading as 'spiritual instruction'. Not only did we get force fed this crap at the meetings and assemblies but many of our parents had their own 'private versions' that they projected on us. One day my mentally unbalanced, spiritual giant, pioneer mother decided to take me for a ride and 'fill me in' on what awaited a little boy of 8 or 9 years old. I was told that if I saluted the flag at school, Jehovah sees me and he will destroy me in the fast approaching Armageddon. When, NOT IF, the governmental authorities take me away from my family during the persecution, I must remain firm. If I 'give in' and do something bad, Jehovah will destroy me and I will never see her or my brothers and sisters again! I feel sorry for and my heart goes out to each and every person (still inside or escaped from this religion) that was subjected to this mind torturing, soul wounding bullshit!