These are some of the most touching posts ! Wind, yours and Aroarer's posts brought tears to my eyes. someone, I forgot who now, said that children need their parents when they're older as much as when they're younger! I have to agree. It seems we cannot appreciate the fact that our parents were only human until we live a bit of life ourselves. I too, threw it in my mom's face about dragging me to meetings when I no longer wanted to go. We fought, like a majority of teenage daughters and mothers do, only worst. I moved out of state at 18. I always loved my mom deeply, but rarelyshowed it, and we fought horribly at times. Your daughter most likely thinks about you more often than you can imagine. It sounds though, that she is just at a point of attempting to get numb. maybe you can drop her a line?
then all of a sudden it seemed like my life was a mirror image of hers
I wish I could have told her how wrong I was about her ,,,,,,,,,,, I think she knew I loved her when she died,,,,,, but ...I wish I could tell her how much I understand now,,,,,,,,,,
Lyin, my mom is gone too, and I also didn't understand a lot of what she went through until after she died. Then it seemed that my life was a mirror image of hers, and I understood alot more. I said and did some horrible things to my mom that haunt me still. And I'm often afraid that she didn't know that I truly loved her... but I really believe that they know, and I really believe that they worried about the same thing, if we knew they loved us. I'll never forget my mom making me promise her, just a few months before she died, to remember that no matter what hurtful things she had said in the past, she loved me. They were really beginning to "up" the amount of morphine she was on and she was afraid that she would forget to tell me. And I know that she wondered that herself about her own mother. And I really believe that your mom knew that you loved her, she, like my mom, may have worried that you didn't know how much she really loved you.
thank you all for the most touching posts,
peace,
christina
Edited by - deddaisy on 14 December 2002 3:49:43