Hi Scout,
I think you’re right. When I left to JW’s I started reading the bible from back to front, some passages using different translations (not NWT), because I wanted to be sure not to fall snare to the devil. I looked up verse-by-verse commentaries and conversed with ‘real’ Christians. And I just can’t honestly deny the destructive massage of a violent merciless God. Some of the passages in Numbers, Samuel and other prophets are disgusting. The shedding of innocent blood is rampant and undeniable when claiming to consider the context. No, the bible does not only contain brutality, one can find beautiful psalms, songs and sermons. The good advice given bubbles forth timeless wisdom. But as you mentioned, some focus on the
'nice' bits of the NT, and try to explain away the OT God who refers to himself as a creator of evil and who dwells in darkness.
I am not an atheist nor am I a worshiper of god. I believe in evolution, being fully aware that it does not answer all questions; neither does it claim to do so. To me human behavior is the greatest proof of evolution. Reading the bible ‘God’s Word’, cannoned by the Catholic Church, in full context is what made me finally loose faith in a loving heavenly Father.
Actually, it all boils down to ‘choice’. Because we are free to choose to put faith in god, free to choose the religion which we (only) believe to be the right one and choose to live by it or not. Faith can, and does, bring people from all over the globe happiness and pace of mind. Christians are surly not the only ones who believe to experience a warm and loving personal relationship with their creator.
I have read much about God’s purpose and plan for mankind and it surpasses the WT outlook and reasoning by far. It gives bible reading a completely new meaning and pleasure. But still it denies the crystal clear context of the scriptures. Which I believe originates with men.