Hi Awol,
First of all, take a deep breath. You were finally able to get passed the hardset two steps, leaving and LEARNING the wts is false. Many people accomplish the first one, scarce few the second. Before the internet, such information was much harder to come by, so when someone left the org, because of being "burnt out", they blamed it on themselves, "Well, I just couldn't do it", many have said. You are already passed that point, so kudos.
As far as working out a belief system, while not HARDER than either of the two first steps, it does take much LONGER. In the wts, we had a simple answer for everything. In the real world, no such simple answers to life exist. We have to make life meaningful, is basically what I'm trying to get at. Study history, as it pretains to religion, and what you will find, if you dig hard and long enough, is that religion is merely a tool used partially to develop moral codes, and partially to explain the unexplainable. I'm not teTELLING you what to believe, that is something you need to develop for yourself. It is FAR more rewarding that way. Have fun with this, really.
j