I can totally understand it, in fact I can relate. Right now I am going through something similar. I was df about a year and a half ago because at the time I had doubts but still felt an obligation to the borg for some reason, so I ratted on myself, STUPID!!!!! Shortly after I was df I read "Crisis" and all my doubts were cleared up, but by then it was too late. I have a very large family in the borg, with extended fam it was like 80 something in cali alone. Most of my immediate fam will talk to me but they won't come visit and I can't really visit them and it bothers them to talk to me much. So I am also in the process of trying to get reinstated and it sucks. It's so brutally boring. At times I can't help but laugh. The worst part is I don't even know if they will let me back in because I have already been red flagged, when I first read "Crisis" I was pretty vocal about it to a couple of "brothers" that I had buisness dealings with in my old hall. I plan on going back and then fading because it won't bother my family to associate with me if I am inactive I'll just have to deal with the occassional "encouragement". I don't plan on lying to the elders but they're pretty dumb so it wont take much to evade their questions without them knowing. It is terrible to have to go through this though but at this point I dont really see an alternative that wont absolutely crush my family. I guess it's better for me to go thruogh this than to put them through what it would if I didn't.
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Your Feelings On Getting Reinstated For Family Considerations
by minimus ini just read the mary/gumby where are they thread.
i want to say right from the start that i like gumball very much.
i've talked by phone to him in the past and we've had some discussions here over the years.
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The Scent of a Woman!!!!
by AK - Jeff inyour intentions are good - entirely manly.
you step into the shower intent on grabbing a skin-drying manly soap - dial or zest or similar.. then it catches your eye - that little 'womanly scented' bath-bar.
you try and reach past it - to get the large man-size bar on the soap tray - but inexplicably you pick up the lady's perfumey soap.
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I only use them when they are all thats left. I actually do preffer lava soap, its great.
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Raymond Franz is back in WTS ?
by Ancientofdays ina friend of mine (still an active jw) is quite sure that r.franz is back into wts.
from his point of view, an evidence is that he never published the 2nd part of isocf, even if it was announced in the first isocf.
i'm quite sure this is a nonsense , but you may help me with some information.
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searching4truth
you kidding blonde knows everything!
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My Wife Just Left Me Because of the Evil Watchtower
by rassillon inthis is very difficult to write because i am crying.
i am normally not the kind of person you will ever see cry because things don't affect me that much but this has got to be the hardest things i have ever went through.. i just got through discussing with my wife my feelings.
i guess it has been hard to hid some of the things that i have felt since i have learned that many of the wt teachings are false.
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(((((((((((((rasillon))))))))))))))
I am terribly sorry
If her reasons for leaving are the wtbts then quit talking to her about it for now. There ways to ease her into how you r thinking. Don't rush it.
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First time for me.........."The wedding night"
by new boy ini had no idea what to expect!...................as in the case of most jws.
since sex is strickly forbidden before marriage.
at the time (1970's) kissing was even frowned at too.
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searching4truth
I don't think I have ever heard a pretty first time story, they are all terribly uncoordinated. And I don't think they give out that book anymore but when I was there my overseer would give the soon to be married guys a sex talk that was painful to sit through.
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crazyblondeb......hey, she needs some encouragement
by purplesofa incrazy can't get online, and jwd is a real support system to her right now.. i talked with her a few minutes ago on the phone......... and she is going to call me tomorrow.. her mom is driving her nuts, she is ready to make a change in her life........and i am asking you to encourage her, as she is being very couragious right now.
i am proud of her.
she is going to call tomorrow and i would like to be able to read some wonderful things to her from her friends at jwd!!!!!.
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searching4truth
Just hang in there it's all gonna be ok.
And remember dubs are nuts, I mean litteraly certifiable keep that in mind when dealing with em.
Much love
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welcome +
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So tired...I feel like less than a sparrow (me)
by JamieL inthis is a nice big open board, thought i'd throw myself out there.. recently i had been a part of the "e-jehovah's witness" board.
especially as i don't think i even care that much anymore.
well, 3 weeks after that she cheated again, with a different guy.
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searching4truth
Welcome JamieL
Sorry you have had so many troubles. Why are you going back? Do you honestly believe it?
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Scared....
by coolcat inhello all.
i just joined the site.
does anyone know of a hotline or a phone number i can call to talk to someone about how to leave the truth?
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searching4truth
welcome coolcat
stick around and tell us more bout your situation some on here have very sound advice.
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COLLEGE?!?!?!? for Me !!?!?
by purplesofa intoday i went to a community vo-tech school with a friend of mine....she needed to pick up her books.. the bookstore was buzzing with energy and i wound up buying 7 books.. i have thought about going to school for a long time.. anyway, i am going to start the process.......whatever that is.......to get some college courses.
not sure if i will go to this school, but i have made the decision to go!!!!!!!!!!!!.
don't have a clue what i will take i just know i want to go.. any advice ?
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searching4truth
Go get em purps.
You should talk to the college counsellor they will probably have some good advice.