I'm glad you went TBTS! I went through the same agony before going to a church wedding 15 years ago...and it ended up a great experience.
Now when I went to the cathedrals in Europe, I had a similar experience to your's. I guess if listened to enough talks in my life with words words and more words. Now a more external beautiful experience allows me to reflect and find my inner words on things rather than the WTBS's constantly drilled in my brain.
Good for you!