No, What Now?, it's not just you. I identify strongly with everything you have said in your OP.
I FORGET that there are people whom you know very well that look at you like you are invisible when they see you.
I FORGET that there are people who lack common human courtesy to say a quick greeting when encountering another human being.
It still boggles my mind. It still creates a "down the rabbit hole" range of emotions in me even though nothing in me wants or misses anything regarding the religion.
The Society has tossed the flock a giant, flavorless bone with this new WBTS/jw.org. It's given them something to knaw on to keep them close as the years tick by.
Take one day at a time. We have our "bitter apostate days", and then we have our "grateful apostate days." The best choice you could ever make is to give your children a life where they can grow to be whomever they need to be. Think how grateful they will be in the future when they realize what it took.