I totally sympathize with the frustration you're facing. I would encourage you to consider trying other medicines. Paxil is OK, but it has specific uses that may not be addressing your issues. Paxil is a little more of an anti-anxiety med, not a full-blown antidepressant. An antidepressant won't magically erase your troubles, but at least they can help you deal with your emotions.
As for being warped by the borg, it's impossible to just forget about it and pretend you were never a JW. But the beauty of your decision to leave is that YOU chose to make decisions on your own, to live the way YOU want to live, etc. You left the borg and all of it's controlling ways; don't let them continue to ruin your life by being resentful about them. Take back your right to have a positive outlook on life.
If you let your job control your life, it will. I know that there may not be a lot of choices as far as employment, but you have to stand up for yourself. By the way, it's illegal for an employer to force you to work longer than 6 hours without a 1/2 hour break. Don't allow them to get away with illegal employment practices. That's a start. Hang in there!