It is kindof ironic how I figured out some of the things I believe now. I have been DA'd for about 8 years, but I was like you and still had it in my mind that JW's were likely right. I had a baby 6 mo's ago, so my mom....who disowns me came to visit. She kept going on about how I need to come back...and my family is going to die, ect. Then she gave me some literature....and I told my husband..."Now that I have these JW books, we can study the Bible to see what I believe." I was actually thinking we would read the books and end up being witnesses. Fortunately he has never been brainwashed and he read some of the books...and said "well....it is very CLOSE to the truth.....but the real truth is just what the bible says" So, I began reasearching what JW's actually teach....like all the false prophesies....that Jesus is the mediator for only the 144,000....the way the JW's have affected peoples lives in very bad ways due to their policies....not based on the Bible....that they PURPOSELY have CHANGED THE BIBLE to fit their views.....I started to UNBELIEVE all of their beliefs....and that opened the door for me to begin to find out what I believe.( I am still so amazed that I never really knew what their teaching were in the first place....and I pioneered!) I found an EXTREMELY helpfull website with great experiences and "talks" that helped me to figure things out. I highly recommend it. If you search "mm outreach' and go to the MM Outreach ministries page....you can listen to a variety of speakers...and they address the things the way we were taught them, and then what the Bible actually says. It was so enlightening!
I hope this helps.......and Praying helped me too. I didn't know who to pray to, but God knew who I meant!