Leaving -- or not attending, or not being a "regular publisher," or being inactive -- activates fear and guilt. We were told forever that fear is what fuels false religion. Hellfire? Fear. Limbo? Fear. Yet, how is the fear of Armaggedon any different?
I used to say that, with JW's, all the pieces were there. Everything fits -- it MUST be the truth. Prophecies, answers to all questions . . . I also asked myself if I would have become a JW if it had been offered to me. If someone had come to my door, would I have invited them in? I thought that since my mother had found "the truth" for me, perhaps I didn't count. After all, I was just raised as a JW -- what would I have done if my mother wasn't so inclined? Was it a mistake that I was "in the truth" ?
Your musings sound very similar to what still echoes in my brain from time to time, like a whisper of a hint of an echo -- what if they're right?
Then I'm reminded of Nostredamus' (sp?) prophecies -- a bunch of them were amazing and right on cue, enough to make you believe -- until you hear about the others that were WAY off. Same is true of the many "prophecies" quoted by the society; 1975? Didn't happen. On and on . . . what it comes down to is whether we live true and authentic lives. If you believe in a higher power -- a power that actually cares what goes on down here in Smallsville -- then leave it to that power to decide. That power is the one that you can rely on -- why do you need a prescription? Do this, do that, step sideways, walk forward -- you'll have eternal life if you do. How about just doing the right thing -- treating your fellow man with kindness and compassion, and stop worrying about your fate. No matter what your beliefs, all we have is now.
Namaste
stacey