i have been lurking for about six months.i have been inactive for almost a year.i havent been to a meeting since nov .
because i have decided i can never be as good as the jws THINK they are .i have been in the truth since 1984.and have always
been made to feel guilty because i could never do enough .no mater how much i did in fs ,meetings and all of the other stuff i was pushed
to do more ,more,more, i begain asking questions ,but the only answers i got was go out in service more pray more study more ..
so i begain looking for answers on this site.and i am so glad i did . i have found out that i am not the only one who has been made to feel
guilty, ashamed,and worthless, i dont think i will go to the memoral,but different ones have been calling ,and putting the pressure on .
but i am not going back.