Posts by FreeGirl2006

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How would you describe yourself since leaving the borg?

by hambeak in

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for me i found myself more involved politically and in community and business affairs.

not as cynical as i once was and not as judgemental as when i was a jw.

also more empathetic about people and finally able to see some beauty in the world.

FreeGirl2006

My feelings have been expressed: free, non-judgmental, happy, alive, no panic attacks, no wondering why people don't love me, no guilt for going to school, no more asthma attacks from attending meetings in mold-riddled buildings. I also LOVE being single...something I never liked as a dub because of all the pressure to marry.

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Post Watchtower experiencesand other positive thoughtsa survivors tale

by The wanderer in

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post watchtower experiencesand other positive thoughtsa survivors tale tornadoes, floods, hurricanes, and earthquakes, there is one thing that all.

of these disasters have in common, and that is they all havesurvivors.. so, to, do human institutions such as concentration camps, prison camps.

and yes, even religious institutions such as the watchtower society.. taking the good out of a bad situation some times individuals will look on the misfortunate circumstances that.

FreeGirl2006

I have a wonderful circle of friends and supporters. I have found people who care about me...something I was missing in the borg. I also found the strength to leave a loveless, horrid marriage to a "nice" JW man.

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Do you dream you are back in the Borg?

by uriah in

i have depressingly frequent dreams of being back in the borg.

i am out on the work thinking why am i here i don't do this anymore.

i am in kingdom halls with my mag - underlined!

FreeGirl2006

I have them frequently. I am usually surrounded by people I have known forever and they are whispering about me. When people come up to talk to me I am forced to tell them not to talk to me. All the while, I am feeling panicky & suffocated. The worst part is when my mother appears (she is deceased) and she asks me "why?". Bleh

Well, the panicky & suffocated is how I felt all the time at the thought of being with dubs...now don't have that at all

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WAITING FOR ARMAGEDDON (good for halloween night)

by Dogpatch in

jehovahs witnesses are waiting for armageddon, .

and this is what occupies their time while they wait!

abraham waves his staff in their faces.

FreeGirl2006

You should publish a book. I have been laughing hysterically...I saw my dub life flashing before my eyes as I read your stuff. Encore, encore. Maybe you should start a blog.

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Um..hi...I'm new too!

by Ex-Jo Ho in

wow!

i came across this site and i felt a huge weight come off of my shoulders!

someone understands!

FreeGirl2006

Welcome Josie! You will find it a great stress relief to be able to vent where people listen & understand.

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What are you now ?

by moomanchu in

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curious as to what exwitnesses have become or believe.

i haven't joined any religous group and do not attend any services.

(have visited a church's service)

FreeGirl2006

Religion makes me nauseous. I stay busy and don't think about it. I would classify myself as agnostic.

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Who is DF/DA or Fader???

by mama1119 in

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i was just wondering, how many dfed to we have on here compared to da or faders??

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FreeGirl2006

Df'd for refusing to meet the Trinity because I was suicidal...recovering from two attempts at suicide. Have not looked back...left JW hubby who is & has cheated on me--the Borg loves him! No one knows where I live and I live in a gated community. No regrets for leaving the loveless borginization.

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What planted the seed of doubt that lead you to leave or think of leaving?

by NanaR in

i've been thinking of this a lot lately.

the following experience ties my first doubt in with my present life.

as a backdrop to this, you should know that i was a 5th generation "raised in the truth" jw through my mother (her great-grandfather got "the truth" from pastor russell).

FreeGirl2006

Most definitely the lack of love. How is df'ing a loving thing? How does that help people who are down & out? How can mere men judge heart conditions & determine true repentance? I saw more hate in the organization than love.

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What Difference Is There Between Your Life As A Witness----And Now??

by minimus in

are things sooooo different now??

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FreeGirl2006

I am much happier, have a feeling of peace that has long been absent. I don't feel oppressed and I am not surrounded by rude, judgemental people who hate.

I also no longer have panic attacks since going to the KH is what brought them on.

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Oh CRap!

by TheKings in

an elder is at my house right now studying with my dad in the next room.

he can probably hear me typing now .

i got two crank calls in a row (the phone is right by the computer on the desk) ...then someone called a third time and i just picked up the phone and slammed it loudly.

FreeGirl2006

Grab your sister & run! At least if they think you are an evil phone slammer they will leave you alone! You are muy funny btw!