Hi Meg! And welcome to the forum!
He knew that I was a former and inactive member I guess. We never talked about church much, we gave presents at christmas, birthdays and such to each other. But it wasnt really a celebration or anything. LOL We have a tree this year and started buying presents, im trying to get into it but its just wierd like im forcing myself to do it. Maybe I need to find a reason to do it, other than eat lots!!!
I was born and raised a JW, and left in my early 20s, when I met my husband. The first christmas we were together, we went to his family. It was really strange, but I was not forced to do anything. And the celebration was really calm, and nothing really made me flabbergasted. I don't think that I was feeling guilt, or anything, but everything was so new to me. The next year, I bought my first christmas present.
Now, some more years have past. And little by little I find my way into these celebration stuff. It's not much, but just right.
You need to find your own way. And you really need to talk things out with your husband. When he asks, you need to think, and try to answer. It can be really hard, I know, I've been there. I could be so angry with all these questions, but it is because of them, that I am where I am today.
I think it was a good advise to also invite your husband to this forum. Here he will find others in his situation, that he can relate to.
kifoy