Hello mrose!! How is your head? What I mean is, are you comfortable being "out"? If so, enjoy it all girl! I love the holidays. And I had to make it all up as I went along. Build traditions for your family, whether you are religious or not. Make cookies even if only to give them to your neighbors and coworkers. Watch some sappy old movie about being glad to be alive. Bring in a tree, or at least some branches for the smell. Make sure to gather food for the local food drives. I think of Christmas as a time I MUST enjoy my family and friends, and the smells, sights, sounds of peace love and joy. Wow, I sound like a real goof, but my kids are now grown and I still love the holidays. Meeting people here who went through what I did, but have yet to embrace this time of year gets me enjoying it all over again. I remember one of the thoughts the JW's always pointed out at this time of year, is that we should be thankful and such every day, not just this time. But that is not realistic, is it? Life and work etc. get in the way. But at this time of year, we are given permission and have a duty to enjoy ourselves and each other! Anyway, sorry for being so exuberant, but that's the way I look at it.