I was not rebellious. But I did try to do something that I learned was not done--ever---because I was asked by a family friend to participate in a panel discussion as the U.S. prepared to make war with Iraq. He knew I was a JW and he had a group of representatives from various area churches who were to explain their faith's traditions for peace. It was the very subject that had enticed me into a home bible study(and subsequent baptism.)
I had no idea how rebellious was. Because I lived in an isolated rural situation --no running water and 5 children still at home with their father at that time absent--I could have no IDEA until the panel's organizer called me with some exasperation and concern that he had been receiving emails and messages that I could not possibly be a JW in good standing--certainly a person unfit/unqualified for representing the Society!
Later I found that it was the sharp eyes on this website that busted me out.
I learned that though I was to know the Truth and teach the Truth--that no women and only special permits let you say anything about the Truth except in a very narrow setting.
It was a shit-storm-feeding-frenzy on the board here. And I never knew it til I was "out" and started putting 2+2 together.
The old s**t-storm thread is on archive here titled: New JW Interfaith Meeting
It still makes me sick to remember it. My old avatar then was "not a captive" at the time I figured out all the back room drama.
Maeve
It's a cult!