Justhuman
Firstly you have picked up the pieces and continued with your life, simply because you are here..........so give yourself a pat on the back for that.
You recognised the jw religion for its falsehood and despite the painful experience leaving that caused, you did it and are out the other side.
When we are 'born into it' we are conditoned all of our lives to expect life in the world to be a miserable experience. The jw religion taught us that we would be unhappy away from the organisation even if we were unhappy in it. This is mind control.
For us to start on a life free of the jws where we experience happiness we have to alter the way in which our minds have been conditioned. We have to recognise that our thinking was done for us and we have had ingrained into us many, many lies and that we are the subjects of a flase method of thinking. We can see that the jws are wrong but we may still be under the influence of the way in which are minds and thinking process are influenced.
If you can afford to seeking professional help which can help you re-learn the way in which you view life would be great. There are also many books which would aid you on your journey. But just opening your heart and mind to the wonderful life we have in the here and now is an excellent starting place. Finding somewhere beautiful to sit and ponder and taking in our surroundings and appreciating them can make us just grateful to be here. Recognising that thinking we cannot be happy, cannot be educated or cannot enjoy a job just because it is not highly paid is just the view we are taking now, somewhat influenced by the mind control we experienced. But we can pretty much do a ton of things if we just take one step at a time with an open heart and love.
We suffer with a certain view of life, but once recognised we can choose to alter that view.........it is not written in stone.........you can decide to be happy..........put on some music you love and play it loud and see how your mood alters.
I wish you well on your journey.
Fi
